This is going to be a very meek attempt at trying to sort out my feelings for the entire day. A little too mixed, maybe, and even now, I don't even know how I should be feeling. Also, I'm actually pretty pms-ey now, so I apologise if this post sounds oh-so-typically-female ( no chauvinistic jokes please )

I'm afraid. I'm afraid of losing connection. Then again, I know I have a tendency to be paranoid so well, yeah. That's kinda ridiculous as well, but look what this excessive fear has led you to in the past. Don't let this happen again. Don't expect the same thing each time, because you know moods change and people behave differently. Whatever it may be, remember that you do not have the right to intrude into problems nor expect them to be told to you.

I'm worried. I'm worried that things may not turn out the way we want it to. After attaining this point it would be a utter folly to ruin things, would it not?

One thing's for sure- I've always trusted your words so whatever it may be, I won't stop trusting them. Though I wish I hadn't texted you that. But what's done can't be undone. Too late to regret. Move on. Sometimes I always wish I'd be at the same level as she once was. Where you're happy just speaking to me and where you check your phone, wondering if I replied. Occasionally, that is. I might be, I might not. But that lies not in my grasp. Not for me to say. Because at the end of the day, I'd rather you just be happy.

Time to make an attempt to put all these fears away. And also time to stop being such an emotional wreck. I swear the sugar gets me really high but also crashes really hard.