Friday, April 18, 2014

Fighting.
Always fighting.
All around me, I'm fighting. I'm fighting and I'm continually sinking.
All around me, people I know, they talk to me, they hug me and then they kill me.
Sometimes I can't even keep my head above the water anymore. It's constantly threatening to drown me, to swallow me within it's depths.
Sometimes I really just want to cave in, to tell someone everything, to have someone listen to me.
But there's no one. No one who fully understands. No one who sempathises. Or perhaps those 2 groups of people never overlap. Those who understand don't emphathise. And those whom empathise don't understand.
I'm stuck always feeling like the other one. The one whom can't get it. The one left behind.
I hate this.
But I don't have a choice, do I?
I've got to keep
Fighting.
Always fighting.
I hate this.
I effing hate this.