Monday would be my third week with the company.
It's fast. It really is. And I'm only saying this because time can only fly quicker if you're having fun. It's probably a far cry from the first day, but despite some upheavals, I'm glad to say that I'm actually starting to like this job. Love it, hopefully.

The abrupt change in opinion though, you may wonder, would be attributed not so much to my work, but rather, to the 2 people whom I work with. This post will be largely dedicated to them for having made my job a little easier to cope with (let's hope I'm not jumping the gun here).
So the first one would be Zul, my immediate coworker, colleague or best known as my 'bro'. He's been there longer than I have, and is therefore more experienced both in terms of the job culture and nature. Job-wise, I've been relying a lot on him to help me out especially when I occasionally mess up and when I'm unsure about stuff. But beyond the job scope, he's the craziest, most 'bull-shitty' guy I've met, the one who cracks the most insanely inappropriate/awkward jokes to cheer me up when I'm stressed from keeping the values tallied, and one who brightens my entire working day by evoking a smile from me despite the stress I face.

The second one would be Nigel. I don't work directly with him, because we're technically from different departments, though we sit just a couple of metres from each other. However, despite speaking to him largely only during lunch hours, I'm grateful for his ready smile, and his quieter (but no less 'bull-shitty') demeanor that plays a part in lightening my spirits whether both he and Zul get together and toss rubber bands at each other (I join in, of course :P)

On a more serious note, however, I don't deny that we've never had issue, but as for me, I'm praying, hoping, that whatever may have occurred prior to my coming may have been resolved. And it seems so, thankfully. I dare not hope for too much, and I most certainly don't want to open a can of worms. I can't afford to lose either one of them, because well, the effects of that would be horrendous. I hope I haven't been too presumptuous here, neither do I want to sound too hopeful, but for once, this job certainly seems to be a bright one for me. I'm hoping it will last. Despite being an arts student and that the  constant calculations needed when tallying the number of vouchers drive me insane.

Love yall, and my kind supervisor too. Thanks for making my job a better one.

The transitioning.

I've officially begun work at the finance department of ntuc fair price, and things seem to be finally stabilising. It's been one rather hectic week, and while I must admit that the transition from having absolutely nothing to do at home to having to rush out the counting of vouchers was a difficult one, I couldn't have expected anything less than what I'm currently experiencing. I'm currently thanking God for having blessed me with a caring supervisor and some nice workmates whom I'd be spending the rest of my time there with. That, plus having the privilege of listening to music and eating whatever I want out of my drawer. It's a refreshing experience, and while sometimes I really dread work ( like now), I've got to admit that it's better that what I hoped for.

Sometimes though, I miss my days at the kindergarten. Not because I miss screaming at children, but rather because I felt that whatever talents I have were at least, well, being appreciated. I was given the opportunity to draw (for the children) and I was honoured when others asked me to help proof read their work. In a way, I was happy because despite the crazy schedule and being drained the entire day, I was appreciated, and the children were happy. Down here, it's a man's world (not like anywhere else isnt) and it's all math related - not my forte. And I fall short in many areas, not just because I'm an arts student, but also because I'm a girl and because I lack experience where others (like my cowokers) don't. It's marginalising sometimes, and it hurts, but I've learnt to swallow it because, after all, I've got very little opportunities to prove myself. I can't do mental sums as well as the other 2 engineering / mechengineering guys, and I lack in exp and strength where they both excel. It's sad.

They're nice people though. I'm glad that I get along with them, despite having vastly different backgrounds, and it's thanks to them that my working environment is a little better. Perhaps it's the fact that I can look forward to seeing them and talking nonsense that helps me get through the day.

I'm dreading the coming week now though. Today marks the last Saturday I'll see Chu because he'll be down for Ndp duty. Even Saturday till 9th August, and that's when I begin uni. I'm probably quitting beginning July, from the looks of it, so I get to spend a little more time preparing myself/spend time with him before the workload piles up from uni.

In any case, there's nothing much I can do now. There's 2 months to clear at work, and then there's uni. It's intimidating, and I'm not quite sure if I'm going to look forward to it.

And as always, they have a reason for saying growing up is tough.
Ah well. Mind over matter.

Again, it's been a while since I've blogged. But in the short span of time, quite a lot of things have happened/are happening. Let's see...

1. I got invited by NTU to study a BA Honours in English Lit! I couldn't believe it actually. Well granted that it wasn't my first choice- I really, badly wanted to study psychology- but having a degree in lit wouldn't be bad either. In fact, it may open up a lot of opportunities for me. Perhaps I could do teaching ( and become another Mrs Low in the process HAHA; the thought is mildly entertaining), or any other English related jobs in the future. Then again, I'm still in the process of waiting for other offers from other Unis, so let's see if NUS or SMU come back with positive offers(:

2. I've started sessions with Adrian with regard to .. some matters. I just realised that the incident that occurred back in Sec 4 wasn't fully healed, and I guess that Chu was right in saying I needed some closure. Except that right now, Adrian is telling me that if I wanted to truly revisit it, he'd refer me elsewhere. The idea seems close to revolting for now, but I understand that he means well, so.. I'll think about it sometime in the future. As of now, it's cathartic talking to him because it does provide some form of relief- something I've been searching for for a long time. He speaks some measure of truth, and despite the pride I originally had, I have to admit that he's right, and that some things I need to pay heed to. It's odd I guess, to find someone who I actually trust this much to reveal that many things about myself. Someone who's had more experience that I do. And whatever veneer I originally possessed disappeared when I decided to trust him. With my life, metaphorically.

3. Chu and I are celebrating our 12th month tomorrow- that's one year, finally! :D Well, the actual date's the 14th of May, but he'll be at the range then, so I guess the weekend's our only way of celebrating it. It's strange how we've come such a long way, changed and moulded for each other in ways I never imagined when we first started out. We began as an insecure, unsteady pair and I'm happy to say we're a lot happier now, more secure(hopefully) and more relaxed around each other.

4. I'm beginning work again on Monday as an admin assistant in Fairprice Finance. Finally, after.. 2 months of rest. I need to get my head working again before Uni. In a way, I can't wait to begin work. To live an active life and to actively participate in a working environment again.