Sigh. Physics book sucks. Chemistry even worse. Sigh. Aiya. This is life. I MUST GET USED TO IT. GRRRRRRR.

:D

HI! Haha... Iam happy.. so happy. My appeal succeeded! :D Now in 3/6. Hahaha... Ok. Estelle was in 3/8 with me but now we've both managed to appeal out-Estelle's in 3/7 though:( anyway..Yay:) Sigh. Better work hard. haha. BYEE:)

QUIZ!

YO. HAHa. Guess what? I stopping tuition. Together with Yi. Sorry Rachel:D Keep in touch via MSN, will u? Haha. ok. Eh, rachel I've stolen your quiz:) sorry about that but imitation is the sincerest form of flattery:D

1) What color is your phone?
White, But it used to be red...:)


2) Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M?
Mum, LOL


3) Who's the last person you called?

Mu mum,Haha, to pick me from the bus stop cos it was pitch dark out.

4) Who was your last missed call from?
Averil:D


5) Who's the 2nd person who miss called?
Mum, I think? If iam not wrong...


6) Who's speed dial 2?
No one. But I've just put Averil as the no. 2 speed dial:)


7) Who's the 3rd person who comes up under J?
Omg. I..I only kinda saved her name in cos I was doing the drama project.Its Jini.


8) Who was your last received call?
My mum,probably. It says 'no number' cos my home no. is private:P



9) Who was your second last received call?
Averil. Thats for sure:)


10) What is your wallpaper?
erm, One where there are a few butterflies and flowers... its a theme:)


11) What is your screensaver?
Same, also from theme:)


12)How many text messages you received?
1198 is what is recorded. Cos i didnt clear for 3-4 months. :)


13) What's the 5th message say in your inbox?
Erm.. Must I say?! Haha. Its from Averil:) iam not going to say for fear of a black eye again:D.jkjk


14) Who was your last text message from?
Averil again:)


15) What is your alarm sound?
What's that? SMS ring tone? Its MSN messenger sound.


16) What is your handphone ringtone?
SMack dat!



17) Name every person you have text messages from.
Whoa, that's a lot. Averil, Mavis, Mum, Crystal, Cherie, Stephenie, Estelle, Shermaine, CAthy,
CHeryl Tang.My cousin,Eugenia, Elizabeth,Phyllis,Shimona,Tessa,Yi chuan......etc. A lot lah:)


18) Have you seen the 101 Chuck Norris facts?
One word: HUH?!


19) Who's the 3rd person on your U?
Uncle frank.


20) What does the 3rd message in your outbox say?
It says, ' there are no messages in your outbox folder'


21) Who is the first name in your phonebook?
Averil again:)


22) Who is the last name in your Phonebook?
Yi chuan! :)


23) Last 4 digits of your number?6857. haha. Averil's is 1694, mavis is 0390:)


24) Starhub/M1/Singtel?
Singtel:)

Stuff...

Went for some CIP at SGH with Averil yesterday. We started with the delivery of papers to different rooms, then some ripping of paper, chopping of papers, then stapling. Weird I tell u. Haha. anyway, I did learn sth, and that is,I love chops no more.

REsults of appeal on monday. Iam so scared...I hate disappointing my parents, even more than I hate disappointing myself. Sigh. What a mess.

What if I just fell off a building and died? That way I wont be disappointing anyone. No iam not suicidle.But I know I cant. How sad...

...

SIGH..........

20 years later...

Iam appealing for a transfer of classes. Hope I can. What went wrong i wonder. I did study. I did!!!!!!! WHY?! I dont understand the logic of it all.. Why cant i be as good as others, when they do well, SO CAN I!!!!!!! I CAN DO IT!!!!!! I MUST BELEVE I CAN!!!!!!!!!! BELIEVE AND I WILL SUCCEED!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I seriously wonder what people thought of me during th time in class lol. Bet they think its nothing to be crying over the results. But this is real!! this is going to affect my future!! WHAt was i thinking? I bet they all felt awkward lol....Imagine this scenario...

20years have passed...

( i walk into a doctors clinic)
(knock knock)
Averil: Come in...
Me: Good morning Doctor Deng...
Averil:Sit down...What's the problem?
Me: Iam not sure.. see I have a persistant flu..
Averil:patient's name...hey that sounds familiar...
Me: your name sounds familiar too..
Averil: I cant believe it! you're my childhood friend!
Me: What?! really?! wow! You've changed alot!
Averil: so have you...
( the usual hugging, and the next thing you know Averil has caught my flu.. haha...)

Me(gushing): I cant believe you've made and become such a successful doctor!
Averil: thank you! and what are u working as, may I know?
Me: well, i..i..iam just a..a archiect...
Averil: that's great!
Me: but its not as a high paying job as yours...
Averil: wasnt that what you've always wanted?
Me: ya but...
Averil: Lets check you over, shall we?
(nurse walks in, briskly hands Averil a bag)
(a pause)
Averil: there we go. You're done. Its just the common flu.
Me: thank you. See you again soon.
Averil: goodbye, and dont forget to take your prescription on the way out.
Me(closing door): bye...

I hope u like this monologe. HAHA. Laugh away:) Hopefully averil wont give me a black eye for wrting this:)

SIgh

SIgh...i got nothing to say. Cried myself sick. Life is complicated right now..:'(