For Bao Yi

Dedicated To Bao Yi:D

Its great to have you around for me
When troubles showed us no mercy
Where frienship problems and the like of slapsticks
Came down on us like a ton of bricks.

Its great to have you around when I
Always seem to end in a cry.
Where things just fade and night turned to day
When all was lost in the midst of the fray.

Time and again I turn and see
A withering look, a look of plea.
When love was lost and our battle was won
Hearts were broken ,so many were gone.

But still you remain, a stout soldier
Though the world has left, we're no longer juniors.
And when the time comes, to say goodbye
We'll know that our hearts will never die.

I missed one of the few chances to do CIP. THANKS PING EN D; Aish. Nevermind. I'll be dead meat if I cant make the 100 hour mark by next year.

Speaking of which, 2 posts before this I mentioned what it may be like to kiss a guy. And of which Shibin had, HAD to see it, I guess it must be really awkward, I mean?!!

Michele's convo name mentioned something about kissing from a song, so that started the talk. Here it is:

☃JuLyn♥ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ        says:
*hhahaha
*aww man sad
*my blog post was all about me wondering what guys taste like
*i mean
*omg that sounded so freaking wrong
*i mean, what its like to kiss guy
   


Michele Elena ; caught by the taste of your kiss says:
*you're thinking wrong
*why is it sad?


ME: *its sad cos i though
*thought*
*u'd have to exp and then be able to tell me about it
  

 Michele        Elena     ; caught by the taste of your kiss says:
*lol
*exp it yourself then
     

 ☃JuLyn♥ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ        says:
*no one to exp with sadly
  

 Michele        Elena     ; caught by the taste of your kiss says:
*lol not no one, but not yet.
*and a first kiss isnt just a kiss from a guy to a girl
      

☃JuLyn♥ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ        says:
*haha
*really?
*then what is it?
  

 Michele Elena     ; caught by the taste of your kiss says:
*LOL. more profoundly, it means like your true feelings. I MEAN YOU DONT JUST GIVE IT AWAY TO A GUY RIGHT?
      

☃JuLyn♥ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ        says:
*That's not quite a kiss what
*i thought that's more like. s**
  

 Michele Elena     ; caught by the taste of your kiss says:
*huh FIRST KISS LE
*LEH*
*you think what
*you kiss the guy but the guy doesnt know you like him?
*RIGHT.
      

☃JuLyn♥ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ        says:
*..
   

Michele        Elena     ; caught by the taste of your kiss says:
*it doesnt mean that you have sex with him then he will know you like him what
      


☃JuLyn♥ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ        says:
*gosh u sound so fierce
*yea thats true also
  


 Michele        Elena     ; caught by the taste of your kiss says:
*right? i make sense :D
      

☃JuLyn♥ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ        says:
*haha yea i gues...
*I wonder if it'll come across that way should kissing ever occur
*we think one way, the guy another haha



MIchele asked me not to put this up. But its interesting how different people have different views. So yes, Iam putting it up. I hope michele doesnt give me a black eye tmr.

Just realised that that poem on Shermaine was my 300th post.I cant seem to crank out another poem right now, though I want to, have to, wish to. Alright. I have poems to write about people alright. Here's who I have to write bout:

Mich
Bao Yi aka B cup
Shermaine(done)
All these people deserve really good poems, poems I shouldnt be writing about when Iam half asleep.But I'll write it.
No one else.
Haiz.But wait. I do have something to say about some particular person I know.

You think you're so smart
You think you're a headstart
But no you've got no special key
Different from you and me.

Then you say " I can!"
We'll just say," I dont give a damn!"
One day you'll find yourself stripped of friends
Then you'll know you've reached the end.

Sometimes you act so nice
So I'll help you, but at a price
Let me give you this piece of advice,
You're acting no different from mice.

I dont care much about you
But I care enough to undo
All the stuff you said of me
Before time's even due.

So I hope you'll understand
Why I treat you secondhand
I hope you dont misunderstand
My words as grains of sand.

Thus ends this 'beautiful' poem of you
I must say that its very true
All those things you thought are untrue.
But now you know
Its not for show
That you're just awfully psycho.

HAhas. Bao Yi and I discussing what its like to kiss a guy. After seeing the ridiculous quiz on my facebook, sometimes, I really do wonder. Bao Yi thinks its like marshmellows, I think of cloth (mainly cos I was too tired and hit the pillow Iam hugging and kissed it) =/ Yea. Cloth. No la. I belive its something soft and sweet, perhaps going to be a wash of love among other sepia coloured recollections..

I have a friend, her name is Shermaine
She rants about BBT and is such a pain
No Iam not serious,there is indeed a gain
I learnt about Shermaine's obsession and that she's so vain(joking)
And Michele says, "you can say that again!"

You'll hear her before you see her
She's the noisiest person I know.
At anytime, its not uncommon just to hear her slur.
In all honesty, I must say, She's just a super despo.


But sometimes, though I have to admit,
She can be quite the apposite.
Where she says," I'll give you la"
You know you can next time just steal her car.
She's generous and acts like some grandpapa
With her stomping footsteps she can shake anything ajar.


This poem is dedicated to shermaine, who asked me to create a poem about her

My best friend, the bully


We once met, a long time ago
Where Good times last
And friendships grow
Before I knew it,
You knew me
And you then showed me
No mercy.

When I begged you to stop
You laugh and say,
" That's cos Iam more pop! "
And continued your horendous doings
like lifting skirts
And taking belongings

And suddenly one day
Your actions are found childish
And suddenly, Iam no longer bullied
By you.

I could just be so mean to you,
Just like you were to me.
But the memory of that pain
Holds back any revenge I planned
Instead, I feel much stronger
By offering you a hand.




~Its true. Memories of Sec 1.

Blessed Birthday Shermaine:)
Okay. Now my post shall take on a sadder note. I dont feel like smiling at all. In fact I feel like crying and screaming, "WHYYYY?!!! "


Sometimes, I dunno what to say, or to do with it at all. I know I shouldnt be feeling this way, but it makes me feel so jealous, like, why, I treat you well and love you and everything, and you treat someone else better. I've always thought you were closer to me. Well, seems like I just have to change my perception of things now. Iam disappointed. Awfully disappointed, sad, shocked, cheated.
I know you cared about me much when I was sick. Thanks so very much. And thanks for all that support. I still love you:)


I know I act happy. But Iam really broken up inside.

Another song.

Does this mean its trust?
I see you standing before me,
I loved you not to lust.
Then I told you all about it
It didnt hurt you a bit
You broke that promise to me
And ripped my heart of mercy..

Could this be trust?
Could we ever belong?
Could we take this time and make it real
Before its way to late...

Where is the trust?
Where is the love?
Can we see it all above?
Where is the hope?
Where is the life?
When we see troubles jump and skive....

I can always remember it,
Cos its just too hard to forget
But it makes me really regret
For those times I wished you were gone
That I'll never have see another lover..
But I see you standing before me
Does this mean its over?

Where is the trust?
Where is the love?
Can we see it all above?
Where is the hope?
Where is the life?
When we see troubles jump and skive....

Yes I'd say, you'd left me once before
But I know you never meant it yet to be..
So I say now, I'd never hated you, though I once did, to the core.
I hope that it solves issues,
Its really messed up too.
So lets begin, again
So let there be no more fight
Its wonderous, its fabulous..
because I just wanna be with you tonight!




Oaky. I sound emo. But I guess this could be made into a song also haha:)

Thanks for... A poetry of gratitude

Thanks for always being there,
When others turned away,
Thanks for remaining by my side
When others failed to care.

Thanks for the good times we shared
And memories ever true
When life's struggles tear apart
Its nice to know I'll have you.

Thanks for giving me your support
When life shows no mercy
When tides turn and there you are,
Awaiting, just for me.

Iam sorry for the times I've said
Things that hurt you deep,
Now I know, how hard you tried
To hold my hand and not weep.

Thanks for coming into my life
Like an angel from the heavens
Where none, not one, has bothered,
And where life and death burns.

Thanks for giving me the strength to say,
Though the words may make me blue,
I just want to say, before its too late,
That you're great, I love you:)



~ Thanks for coming into my life:)
Thanks, all of you, for showing support when I was sick:)

Fever today. Didnt go to school. Let me see what i did today okay?
Woke up at 5.50. Super giddy. Walked like a drunkard into my toilet, rinsed mouth.

Went downstairs, ate an egg, then ate half a sausage bun. My mum came downstairs, saw that I had no appetite, asked me if I was well enough to go sch.

Went upstairs, climbed up 1 flight of steps, then suddenly blacked out. Woke up, was on the bed.

My mum said that she called the bus driver, saying I couldnt go to sch. Ate a panadol, then went to slp.

Woke up at 8. Drunkardly walked into the toilet to rinse mouth again.Then went back to sleep.

Woke up at 10. Went into my study room, sat there, stoned, stared at the clock. Opened my math textbook.

Tried to do math. Wrote 'textbk pg 142, Ex 6d' And couldnt write anymore.

WEnt back to bed. Woke up in time to see my mum come home from teaching. No appetite to eat porridge, but ate anyway, cos home remedies cant be eaten on an empty stomach.

It was 3 then. Went back to bed.

Woke up at 5. Mum was staring in my face, wondering if I was okay.

7pm. Woke up, ate some hor fun, went to the doctor, who prescribed anitbiotics, cough syrup, fever medication, sore throat med.

Came home, ate them. THen bathed. IN COLD WATER.

turned on com. damn dizzy now. and nauseas.

Fever. Should I go sch tmr?

Hate this. I have to study, I want to study, I just CANT GET DOWN TO STUDY!! Forget it. I shant.

Geog LORMS havent been done.
SOVA is still uncompleted.

What kind of organised person am I...

Wow. Blogger is finally working man. So now I can see all my icons and can upload photos. But really. Iam lazy to upload. Let see..

Had English Oral today. Was the timekeeper for reg no.s 7 - 19 and 20- 31. My tester was super lienient! :D PS: I know Iam lucky to get him as my tester. I want to say what happened in the pic, but in case the teachers dont wanna change the pic, Iam not blogging about it. To cut a long story short, he said that my pronunciation and articulation of words was good:D and its super surprising considered the fact that I thought I'd slur (okay, yea I did.. a bit) with braces and all ( i bit my tongue halfway and my lips were hooked up the metal bracket) it turned out fairly okay I should think. My next hurdle? The chinese Oral exam- tomorrow. Wish me luck.

I know. I love you guys, friends. Yes, my friends. Not acquaintences- friends. For now i see how important they are, and what they mean to me.

You. You're different from me. Only an acquaitence. But we both have a different set of friends. And sometimes, I think, That's the only reason why you and I cant be.

Talking to Phyllis online and on the phone now. We're supposed to be doing amath, but iam digressing. SHHH ! chloroPHYLL will kill if she finds out.

Fate.

Sometimes, I do wonder if it all boils down to fate. What fate gives us, what we have to accpet simply because ' its fated to be so'. Then again, what really is fate all about? Is it simple the meeting of new faces, of new friends? What can we classify as fate? We often say," Oh, we're fated to meet". Just imagine. Had I not gone to IJ, my home away from home, would I meet my friends? Would I meet Shermaine, my craziest-to-be friend? And Michele, my ever-so-sweet buddy with a cheerful disposition? How about Bao yi? My greatest Epismile buddy and the long hours we spent online? Talking? Would I meet a new set of face? Would my MSN contain another set of emails? I'd never forget the days we spent together, buddies, The crazy one, the sweet one, the great Epismile one. And of course, all the other friends who have not faded but remain constantly there when I need them- Averil, Mavis, etc. etc. And would I say fate brought us all together? In some ways, yes. Is it fate that bring us together? Is it fate that tears us apart? I have yet to know of the answers.

Went to Pasir Ris beach today. My dad's great idea at the last minute. Wasnt too bad really. I only remember that I stepped onto an ant nest and the ants were all over my leg. 1st thought was to dip my foot in the water to get rid of the ants, but I remembered in time that the water was polluted and that the government strongly advised us not to touch the water. I spent 5 mins beating the ants off, longer for those who chose to march up leg like napolean. Iam lazy to blog more.

I MISS MY AEP WORKSHOP SENIOR SAMANTHA!!!!!!!!!
AND I MISS DR LOH!! D:


Why does life have to be so sad, the very people you love cannot be with you when you want them to...

Hey! So many things to blog about today I really have no idea how to start. Okay. 1st things 1st.

Went to Hwa Chong Institution for this AEP workshop. We were spilt into 25 groups, with 1 IJ girl in each group. So you bet I was feeling rather out of place. Played this icebreaker thing and got to know this Hwa Chong JC1 girl by the name of Samantha. She's super nice. when the lecture got too boring we wtarting folding paper origami and the lecturer didnt even catch us! :D Sigh. I've got this weird thing about me, that is, if I go anywhere, I'll always miss someone from there, and I guess Iam going to miss Samantha. Sigh..We did this video thing, where we were to create this video, and add stuff called the 'pitch' and other stuff inside. Our group ALMOST won okay! but okay, maybe I wasnt THAT keen to win. The prize was a kinder surprise egg and some rochers.

Had to leave for my dentist appointment after that. As I did last month, I posted my conversation with Dr Loh. and so will I this month,

Dr Loh: Julyn!
Me: Hi!
Dr Loh: Hey, your friend came to the Novena medical centre right?
Me: Yup! Grace!
Dr Loh: Ohh I see, no wonder she was asking me about you!
Me :Haha.
Dr Loh: You, Bao yi and Grace are all schoolmates is it?
Me: Yup, school mates, class mates too!
Dr Loh: Her condition is a little difficult to treat though.
Me: Oh man. That's sad alright. Haha Iam so good right? you hurt me so much yet when Grace asked for a good orthodontist I recommended you.
Dr Loh: Ohh haha thank you thank you!
Dr Loh: You know Bao Yi has been coming here quite often because her crown dropped?
Me: Her CROWN?!
Dr LOh: Ya. Do you know why?
Me: haha I know but I promised her I cant tell anyone leh.
Dr Loh: Tell me la!
(Another Dr at that time, Dr Yong, loweres the chair)
Me:(lying down) I cant tell u or Bao Yi will kill me!
Dr loh( Sticks a sharp metal tool inside mouth): TELL ME!!!
Me: OWWWWW!
Dr Loh: YOu want to get killed by Bao Yi or by me?
Me: I dont want to get killed at all!
DR loh: Alright then I will make it very painful for you.
Me: I cannot betray Bao yi.
Dr Loh: Tell me la!( sticks the metal tool back into mouth)
ME: (hurting so much Iam starting to tear): She... she just banged something la!
Dr Loh: Banged what?
Me: I DUNNO!!!
Dr Loh: Using her teeth!!!!?!!!
Me: Urgh... ( too painful to reply)
Dr Loh(removes metal tool): Okay la, I wont really hurt you okay?
ME: ...
Dr Loh: You hate me now right? *preteneds to sniff*
Me: NO! I dont hate you!
Dr Loh: Then you love me! right?
Me: Ya ya ya.
Dr loh: Good!
Dr Loh: Julyn..you;re biting me..
Me: sorry!
Dr loh: your bottom row teeth havent moved! Iam going to have to use plastic.
Me:...
Dr loh:this is going to hurt a bit.(forces plastic onto metal bracket)
ME: OWWWW! (starts to perspire)
Me: *gasps in pain and starts to pant*
Dr Loh: Julyn, you're crying or laughing I also cannot tell..
Dr Loh: Iam doing this because I love you, just remember that
Me: okay okay.. you love me.
Dr loh: Good. You know, not say never do la, but I seldom do normal braces now.
Me: Oh?
Dr loh: ya. I do more fast braces now.
ME: DOesnt matter. Fast braces may hurt less, but I can endure the pain of normal braces la.
Dr Loh: Done!
Me(wipes eyes as Dr Yong takes the sunglasses from me and looks hard at me): Orh, ta liu lei le.(to Dr loh)
Dr Loh: REally! Sorry sorry!
Me: *thinks of HHF sorry sorry song by super junior* its okay.Thanks very much anyway:)
Dr loh: w8! Dont go yet! I show u the mirror*hands me mirror*
Dr LOh: See your front 2 teeth have plastic bits? Yes that is to push ur teeth forward faster.
Me: oh. Okay..
Dr loh: must remember its because I love you that's why I want to give u more pain so u can finish it faster okay!
Me: Okay okay:) Thanks very much and see u again soon!


Haha. Super funny la.Sigh. Now I have to do my facebook photos before shermaine kills me. 1st bao yi, then dr loh, then shermaine. I dont have 9 lives. I can only die once. You choose.

I CANT STAND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO WHAT IF YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN VERY WELL DO THAT TOO YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!! JUST THAT I CHOOSE NOT TO!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like typing all the vulgar words I know HERE>.< But cos Iam decent enough to to pollute my blog, I shant. Into my journal it shall go then. Piss Me Off.

Hey! Got something to share today

Was waiting for the bus no. 70 at Yio Chu Kang Station today after school. In front of me there were these 2 boys, and for easy reference, I shall call them Fat boy and Thin Boy. Fat Boy was in front of me, while Thin boy was at the waiting area for bus no. 13, which was just in front of no.70. In front of that, there was a drain with a heavy iron grill. While waiting for the bus to come, the boys were shoving and pushing one another, evidently playing. Fat boy held his Ez-link card in his hand. Just then, bus no. 13 came, and thin boy boarded it. Just as he was at the door, he gave fat boy a hard shove and fat boy's ez link card fell into the drain through the grill. The bus no. 13 then moved away. Fat boy tried to stick his hand through the drain cover to get the card but no avail. He said," SHIT! " super loudly, then left. Shortly after, he returned with the cleaner, who shouted something in chinese/hokkien/teochew. By this time, there were a few people who were behind me in the queue: a guy from this school with a white top and long white pants, an old lady and 2 army guys. The fat boy tried to get the cover up again, hoping that the cleaner would help him, but instead, was shouted at for dropping his card. It was then that the guy in the white uniform tried to lift the drain cover but he couldnt also, ( that ruled out any chance of me helping them). Then the 2 army guys stepped forward, one tried to lift the cover by digging his fingers under the cover while the other grabbed the grill. It took them a really long while. When the cover was finally up, the fat boy, who was watching all this while, fished around for his card then quickly ran off, WITHOUT saying thank you! The cleaner shouted at the boy again to say thanks, to which the boy quickly said, " thanksssssssssss" then ran off like really fast for this weight. The army guys were like, "oh..nevermind..." Their hands were really dirty at that time. All dispersed after that.

HAha. See. That's the reason why I admire people, army guys for their strengh especially. One of them was really quite hot actually. Heh. No, maybe it was because it only reminded me of someone...

Quite tired of AEP really. Another workshop on monday. I wanted to say because I had a dentist appointment I couldnt go. But I had to write a parents letter, so of COURSE, my mum said to change the appointment and make it later. Sigh. AEP is stressful. I want my braces tightened. Going to put Pink and blue braces after this. Hope I dont look nuts.

Its been a year. And it was so fast. Its Taiwan for me now, fun, theme parks, mango ice blend, chou tou fu. bubble tea ( ;D )And Taiwa is Shermaine's dream country because her beloved BBT is there. What will fate bring me this time? Who will I meet? That, Iam really excited to know.