photo of US!

Haha. Here we go. from left: Averil, Mavis and I. Mavis is super photogenic. HAha.
Oh, and i didnt upload the other photo cos of camera shake. sigh. but i guess both averil and mavis looked good, except that I wasnt looking at the camera.:(

teachers, and the big part they play in a student's life

I don't really know what to say, or do now. I can't believe it. The bombshell just dropped-Miss Ho has resigned! I only found out late last night and i woke up this morning wondering if it was just a dream. To think that I didn't even mention a word about it during the exhibition and was just telling her what I thought of my artwork on the wall, like everything was normal.Wrong. It was not.

Then She sent me some message asking me to continue drawing,imagining and creating. I thought that she wasn't going to be teaching us next year. Wrong again. She's leaving for good. I guess she was one of the nicest teachers i've ever met, someone i could really talk to without feeling awkward. SIGH. All the best for your future and may God bless you always:)

Then comes the second bombshell, but this applies to everyone. Not really a bombshell, more like a a ticking time bomb. Mrs Wong won't be teaching us. SIgh again. I mean, ok, she goes beyond the level of studies and brings it down to a more personal level. I guess she understands what we all are going through, and is probably the teacher who affected me the most this year( in terms of grades and etc.) SOmehow, you can tell when a teacher really is compassionate about her job or not. From the conversation, (which included Mrs Wong, my mum and I ) She said that she 'loved her job too much to want to stay in Perth'. Bet other teachers don't have the desire to stay on because of the love for something.

Yet despite the fact that our class had a horrible reputation, Mrs Wong actually selected to teach our class. FOr that, i guess we owe it to her. Thank you Mrs Wong. WE LOVE YOU <3

End of year woes

So there we go. The end of the very last day of our school year in 2/4 08.It makes me cry just writing about this. WHY? I can't get rid of that heart-wrenching feeling that engulfes me very time I think of what the future may be, what obstacles lie ahead, what challenges we might face. I tried, I REALLY tried to stem the tears which I remember Averil and I just mentioning about the day before, " do you think anyone would cry on the last day, tomorrow?" SIGH. I swore I wouldn't, I shoudn't , I can't cry, but yet I did. I made a list of people I would really miss. NO THEY ARE NOT ALL. But Iam just listng those I've bonded with. Here it is: (in no specific order)

1. Averil( the steadfast, understanding,great councellor,strong-willed:) )
2.Mavis( the sweet, funny, happy,I'll-never-insult-anyone person:) )
3.Shermaine( lollipop-lover,funny, happy-always:) )
4.Estelle( funny, easy-going:) )
5.Chloe(My best neopets buddy! :) )
6.Phyllis(Optimistic, great source of comfort:) )
7.Crystal(Clear as her name suggests, nice, easy-going:) )
8.Stephenie(sweet, understanding:) )

Pls note that I mean well when I write this and don't give me a black eye.

What i remember most about these people:

1.Averil: band, Clarinet, comforter
2.Mavis: haha, Chinese pro, dog-lover
3.Shermaine: AEP, lollipop,guides
4.Estelle: Guides
5.Chloe: Neopets, bowling
6.Phyllis: My p6 friend
7.Crystal: Badminton
8.Stephenie: Red Cross, blog-pro

I can't forget these people. They have played a big role in my life. Not to mention those who annoy me. But Its ok. I forgived you long ago. I remember a song ( sung by Avril Lavigne, My happy ending)

Lets talk this over
its not like we're dead
was it something I did
was it something you said
don't leave me hanging
in a city so dead
held up sp high
on such a breakable thread
you were all I ever thought I knew
and I thought we could be.......

Friends, are just friends, let the good times come.....

It took me some time to start writing something. Its not like I feel like it, but iam feeling subdued. Not that i want to. I was hoping for a holiday better than last year's. but as it turned out, that's not going to be the case. Why is everyone shooting ahead now? Everyone has changed so much, both for the better and the worse. Some used to be so nice, and now they have changed so drastically that should they just wear a mask, I won't even recognise them anymore. Why? I seem to be stuck in this place, like a rat in a trap while all my fellow 'rats' have found a way to escape and have moved on. leaving me, the sad me behind. Thinking about it now, I guess my results were far from ideal. Why do all my close friends do better? Why can't i be up to their level? I don't understand. Next year, will i be so embarassed to meet my friends who are in so much a better class than i am? I can't bear to face the fact that we will all be moving on next year, seemingly to another era. Our relationships which we have so seamlessly sewn together will be ripped apart with such force that we may not even acknowledge each other as friends. I try to think, 'Frens 4 eva!' will remain true to its words, but we all know that friendships may not last and most importantly, FRENS ARE NOT FOREVER!!!!! We must all learn to recognise this. Friends come and go, withour our knowing, we have already lost them.

To top it all, I can only say that I must now face the blatant fact that my results aren't good enough to put me in the same class as my friends this year.

So i can only say this. I hope that this doesnt sound as if Iam losing hope, or if u feel uncomfortable about this, Iam sorry. Averil and Mavis, goodbye friends.

ps. to lighten this message, Iam not going to die. Not yet I hope.

mmmmmmmmfffffffffffffffffffffffffff

Sigh. HAHA ok not a very good way to start. Results are released tmr. Don't frighten me any further by asking any of the teachers how the class did.

Found out we had a new gym comm. today from Sheryl. Yup, a bit late isnt it? I probably wasnt even there for the selection( how do u select anyway?) and a whole new comm is now faced with more responsibilities, people, etc...

Haha ok. I just read Shermaine's blog and she says she wants to 'learn dance'. ok then I'll say. Somehow rhythmic gym appeals to me now. i must be going mad. I don't stick to my CCAs. They're not even related! Ok. lets see...

P1-P2: selected for the rhytmic gym schoolteam. Dunno how I got in. Must be a case of luck. Quit because I did'nt dare to learn the split( which iam trying to now with little success).

P4-P6: Selected for photo and video Society. Met the twins, Xin hui and Xin Ru and Nicolette.

Sec 1: Joined Tramp.Was in school team and didn't know it. So pro right?

Sec2: joined Schoolteam for 2 mths, then quit( don't ask me why)

SIgh....... I learnt this sometime ago but never put it into action: a rolling stone gathers no moss. Should have realised this earlier.