Thursday, June 21, 2012

A game of Sims.

I upgraded my entire blog and now it looks... strange. New, even. But the thing is, It's kind of symbolic as well. Almost like how I'm leaving my childhood behind ( dayum, I should have changed the skin the day I turned 18)even as I'm not technically an adult yet. But I guess I will be this year, so it suppose the timing's rather appropriate.

Anyway, back to the symbolism ( I think I've had a lit overdose)- I think there's a lot that can be said about the significant switch in things, the colour scheme, the designs, even the title and its description. It's a rather odd feeling but I miss the old theme a little, the cartoon pictures of chocolate cakes against an equally chocolate background. And the only reason why I miss it is because I can never get that theme and design back again, simply because I ridiculously forgot to save my template before upgrading it ( yes yes, blur).

But technicalities aside, it's almost akin to how we have to move on in our lives, even though the desire for a great majority of us is to cling on to whatever we have and not accept change as a part and parcel of life and it's uncertainties- thus my new blog description over there as well. Doing away with the ' CAKES GALORE|Ju Lyn<3 ' appears to be almost an attempt at accepting life and what we know it as the 'strange destiny'. ( actually, that last part of my blog description was actually paraphrased from Tess of the D'Ubervilles, The Maiden)

With Tess on my mind, I guess I could go on about the bleakness of life and how we are governed by God and how He chooses to lead our paths, but that would be a tad too dismal. Although I suppose the 'blighted star' that we live on which appears to fully subjugate us by evicting us of the power to fully control our lives is partially true as well- we are never fully in control of our lives, are we? How can we be, if we can never be certain about what will happen in the next hour, minute or even second? Perhaps we are never really in control of our own lives- the decisions we make are but insignificant drops of water in the vast ocean of what will actually happen? I mean, I recently read about this lady who planned ahead of time, not one year, not two years, but 5 years ahead. Then one day, she was struck down with cancer and realised she had only 3 months to live. The effort she put into planning for her future was futile then. Perhaps it is the omniscient observer, God, even, who believes that one should not attempt to gain too much power and control over our own lives by striking us when we least realise it, a painful but necessary fine.

Sometimes I like to wonder if we're just mere puppets that live upon this earth, governed by fate or even God. It's like the game of Sims, whereby we are players of a little town for which the people have a mind of their own, yet we, as players, have the power to do anything we want to these people- starve them, play with them, decide when they should fish or make friends with someone. Now imagine that we are those people living within this game, with minds of our own and lives to lead. Yet despite all that, we have someone, God, watching over us, deciding how our lives turn out, just like how we, as players, decide how the lives of the Sims play out, scolding and punishing them when they do something bad, and praising them when they do something good.

Aren't our lives all a game of Sims and Virtual Villages? It most certainly seems so. Maybe that's the reason why we're always trying to see into the future. Because it hurts to be punished for doing something bad.










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