I've done all I can. Ultimately, any change will be entirely out of your own effort. 

There's only so much I can do without exhausting myself just talking to you. 

It's not so much a case of misery, but more a case of reluctance is accepting fate, accepting change and accepting what God has planned.

Thing is, you're atheist. My last clause will therefore be rendered null and void in your opinion. 

Kinda strange how I always end up ranting here. I get those moody moments where I just want to go against what everyone is telling me and just do the opposite for the fun of it. But I never actually do anything like that because it's actually kind of immature. 

Like tonight. 

It hit me that I didn't want to be like anyone else. I don't want to be used to remind someone of another person, and neither do I want to be compared. And I will do likewise. 

Then again, there are those moody moments when my friends try to talk to me but I'm too moody to talk to them in a hyper, high fashion. Then I get moody when they don't talk to me. Kind of ironic, no? 

Okay you know what, I'm typing this in a half daze. Tired, sleepy and altogether quite antagonised. Probably the result of trying to make my friend see some sense by talking/yelling via whatsapp, doing my ELL essay ( for 2 whole days now, sheesh), trying to talk to another friend of mine who is somewhat interlinked with the 1st friend I was yelling at via whataspp, and ultimately trying to make sense of the whole situation I'm faced with myself. 

Whatever. Goodnight world. I'm too dazed to continue typing.