For one thing, the healing period has been a lot, and I repeat, ALOT, easier than I imagined it to be. Why? Simply because the last few times I saw him on twitter before we unfollowed each other, he was cursing the hell out of me, wishing that I'd die someday. And honestly, this is making the healing period a lot faster because now I don't have to fight against myself to stay out of contact with him- he's helping me- with his words. He's distancing us and making me miss him a whole lot less. Oh well. I really am such an idealist sometimes, even thinking we could be friends...
But idealist or otherwise, that's a chapter in my life gone, time I'll never get back, and memories from which I learnt some painful mistakes. Mistakes that I'll never make again, because the wounds are just too painful. I'm always glad that I have friends there as an anchor though- it keeps me sane and had it not been for them, my journey would have been so much rougher.
But there's this one person, and... honestly speaking, he's one person I can truly, wholeheartedly, trust. Despite seeing all my insecurities, he doesn't judge me, and he's the one person I can truly say is altruistic. I'll admit that I can be a selfish person. Yet despite the fact that I can be selfish, I'm enlightened whenever I hear that he has succeeded in achieving something.
I wish I could continue saying more. But whatever it is, this is still going to go online. And whatever's online, can be tracked so... even though I wish to continue, I shall stop here for now.
Time to sort out the mess.
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