Seriously. Am I that bad? I never thought I was that bad. But if the results don't show, what evidence do I have? ' Seems like God never gave me anything but dreams.' You know, its the very 1st time that I've seen something that I absolutely, positively, cant do well in. That's hard enough. But the fact that I have a choice as to whether I want to continue with this makes the whole desicion harder. Everything I do now boils down to the question : SHOULD I DROP A MATH? I have always been poor in anything that has to do with figures. But I've never had a choice. Now I do, its even harder. Its so ironical. there are things that I wish we could have a say in, but its just not possible. Now I wish there was no choice as to whether I can drop a math or not. It just makes life harder, the desicion more difficult, the facts and figures more confusing.

anyway. Iam having a really hard time typing because my hand hurts. Like crap yea. Idk why. I have to keep retyping certain word over 3 times before I get it right. So you can see its tedious for me, even in things I usually enjoy, ie. blogging.