I wish I can say this is all a dream. But, this isnt. Its reality-in the face. I dont want to lose you as a friend, but there's only so much I can do to prevent you from feeling disappointed with me. I hate disappointing you- I hate it more than anything else. Because besides you being my pillar of strength for as long as I've known, you've also been a shoulder to cry on and a wonderful friend. Its due to all these at which I dont wish to sour a relationship with you. But somehow I have. Unknowingly. Due to my naivity and my ignorance. I've thought it out, and yes, I believe you have a right to be upset with me a little. And this is what hurts me most.