Have you ever gotten the feeling that you miss something so much that it hurts you to even think about it? Its already been 6 months. But that still cant erase away the memories, good and bad, I had of that trip. And its really ironical to even think that a song, an english song, can remind me of a trip into our culture and heritage, a land where our fore fathers once roamed- China. So lets just close our eyes and allow ourselves to sink back in time, a time just 6 months back , to rediscover what we've missed, to reinforce what we've learnt. we're falling backward, tumbling, into a land of dreams.........

I remember when I 1st saw you. Indifferent, it seemed. We were the only ones to board Singapore airlines, while all the rest of the tour group boarded the China Airways, thus earning us the fond nickname " the SQ group" . Xitang water town was the 1st place where I actually saw you properly. Not really. In fact I saw your sister 1st. The sweet, modest, yet discreetly charming lady, as I've always known her to be.

Somehow, we were seated right behind one another in the tour bus. That probably played a big role in binding our relationship. When we took that photo at the Long jing green tea plantation, I still distinctly remember your grin, easily recognisable by the tooth of yours which stuck out like a sore thumb. What struck me was your quick smile, your eagerness to please, your enthusiasim in maintaining our relationship. Notwithstanding your looks. Cute. Its strange that the only thing about our relationship is that photo, captured in poloroid, preserved only by celloloid.

When you left us the day before last, I was sad. Only I chose not to show it. Because apart from the way I realise that 'Big boys don't cry', we weren't close enough .Or so I thought.

Then I remember your 1st conversation on MSN. I sounded restrained. Why? It is the very 1st time I've spoken to any guy without a hint of sarcasm in my voice. Then I realised that I had a lot to learn from you, as you always enjoy, me being a 'small little girl' and a 'sister' in your eyes.What with your chim english, " an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind", " tough times don't last tough men do"," It takes someone dumb to agree but someone smarter to disagree" . All these, what useful quotes I can use in my exams.

When I open my eyes, its all these recollections that allow me to reflect on them in that way. Its strange that these are the main memories that remain in my mind. See dreams may be just dreams. But it is what we gain and understand from these dreams that matters the most.