You know, I've always wanted to learn chinese well. Why? Because I love China. I do. And Iam not afraid to say so. Just that setbacks sometimes refrain from allowing us to love something or someone. And why? As far back as my memory goes, I've been english educated. And it amazes me that some people can speak chinese so fluently without even a hint or a trace of fear.
Somehow, I wish I could do the same. But Iam ashamed, compressed by my own fear of being the gentle butt of their jokes, even as I know that I ought to put my best foot forward and do what I think is right, regardless of what others may think.
But all these require courage. And, unshamedly as it might be to proclaim such a fact, I don't possess that courage. THAT courage. That courage to stand up and go against the flow of normality and pursue my desires? Yes, I know, ' The one thing that doesnt abide by majority rule is a person's conscience'. I know, talk is easy, but ACTION IS TOUGH. Action is tough I say!!
And another thing. Is it my opinion... or are... friendships problems creeping up on me?
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