This is embarassing.

Screw Pet society... Everything I see now is like ,magnified by a hundred. Facebook photos are now so big, I still wonder who on earth Iam staring at when I click on a photo. =/ Even blogger. Omg. I cant type anything and my font size is easily a size 20. 20!! Click click, the words are huge.Leary.. HEavy.. omg...

Speaking blogger, I just remembered I had something really embarassing to blog about. Shhhh. Iam trying to be brave and blog about it all the same okay. So dont laugh. Please dont.
Here it is..
HAd my PFT on friday during PE. I have no idea what happened, but like, all of a sudden, I've lost my ability to do inclined pull ups anymore :( When I think about it, sec 1 I hit, 20. SO when the PE teacher called me up, I didnt quite have second thoughts about this metal bar strung above my head.

When I was lying under the bar waiting for him( PE teacher) to start the timing, I got cold feet. Yes I know it isnt a good time. But i did, and when I think about it now, I still do. I heard," Chin up, butts up, GO! " Then the timing started. I did 1, it was painful. I did 2, it was agonising. I did 3, it was excruciating. I gasped and did the 4th one. I couldnt believe it. 20! and now? 4. Panicking, I tried, TRIED to lift myself up agian but COULDNT. I heard him say, "cannot then cannot, don't waste my time trying." That was the straw that broke the camel's back. I defeated. I dropped. Then I jumped up and saw the fate I finally was in- my gold for PFT had flown out of the window. It didnt take very long for tears to cloud my eyes. And in a short 5 seconds after I'd gotten up, I broke into full blown crying. OMG. Embarassing. All I remember was My teacher looking at me, ( though I couldnt really see) and Francesca, bless her, trying to hug me. I normally wouldnt take to that. But somehow I let her. And thanks Fran. Very much so ;) Then My PE teacher said smth that make my regret the tears immediately, " Typically girls school......." .. -.-

I dont know why I started crying. SOme said that I set my goals too high. But I've got a reputation to keep you know. And falling down like that, deafeated, isnt my idea of keeping my rep as an ' Army girl' . I dont like that nick. But it beats others that they gave me. And I lost my very last shred of dignity by CRYING. CRYING. I cant believe it. I still cant. Its a mixture of factors really, I think I was just too disappointed with myself, (maybe i DID set my expectations too high) and the fact that my friends could do more, and I had to be so weak. To cut a long story short, everyone treated my like I was some delicatewind mobile, and my teacher let me have extra chances. No I hate sucking up to teachers. Trust me. I didnt ask for it. And yes, I still managed to hit 11 inclined so all well that ends well I guess ;)