iam back from the dead

I have posted for a long time. Forgive me please, for allowing this blog to grow mouldy and stale like a piece of cheese.
Fair bit of things have been happening over the past few weeks. JC life is tedious, but as with anything that reaps good results is never easy.
I miss IJ a lot. I miss Mrs Low and all the teachers who have nurtured me this far. Its not an easy job, but suddenly I miss the blue and white uniform I've worn 10 years of my life. Adapting requires time, and sometimes I think that Iam not adapting fast enough, or trying to please everyone. Is it only me?

Sometimes in trying to please others I lose myself entirely. I don't know who I really am, or if Iam hiding behind some sort of facade. I don't even know if Iam real or fake anymore. I try to be as real as I can but if others say otherwise, then again, its not for me to comment, but for others to watch and make the deduction themselves.

Is there something wrong with me, or am I just being paranoid and overly self concious?