Sunday, February 8, 2009

what'ts going on?

I think iam going to fall sick. I can feel it. What with all this project work just waiting to be finished, with such a high percentage of marks. What's going on? I hate the way my life is now, I really do! Why cant I be the more cheerful person I used to be? The way i used to laugh at jokes, instead of just shutting up, like someone just turned the volume control knob down.

I've heard it easier to treat someone different when you stop thinking of that person as a human, with feelings and all. Like an inanimate object. Or dead. Maybe. I want to break out of this shell which is growing increasing tighter, about to squeeze the life out, and only then will it ever rejoice.

I wish there was someone who won' laugh at my troubles, at these so ever prominent troubles, problems.. but instead would just listen to me and lend me a shoulder to cry on.

Iam not emo. I know it. Time to stop acting like one. SNAP OUT OF IT Julyn! Don't be such a awful loser and wallow in self pity! Others are worse and they're not snapping! Wake up! Be strong!

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