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Hi!
Ok. Lets take a vote. Who thinks i should stay in gym?
WHo thinks i shouldnt?

Okay seriously there's just too many things to do without already having to post, but still here I am,I know i havent posted for quite a long time so...... Anyway Iam still unsure as to whether i Should quit gym... Cos its a pretty difficult time for me in there... Even if i should quit , what can i join anyway? I think some people think i pulled string to get into Schoolteam, which is like, so not true cos I wasnt even thinking of getting into schoolteam anyway...It came as such a shock even weeks later Iam still feeling the aftermath of the whole incident... I wish the other people who are far better than me would understand, Its like i don even feel part of my own CCA! I hope the others in gym arent thinking iam too aloof to be friends with them. I really wan to be but i just can't seem to fit in! Its like, A square peg in a round hole..

As the saying goes, ' 50% of the people usually like u, but 50% do not' Its the same in gym, maybe not really, cos I really want my friends to accept me in... but....... I really envy the my friends (both in gym and otherwise) that they can be so natural in what they are doing...Its like a fish and a house, they don get along, not resemblence.

But anyhow, If i quit, all i've been doing is going to go down the drain.. Some people really think its only the CCA points which matter... they don even understand that there's more to the whole CCA matter?!