I'm sick. Fever.
Again, and as always, right before exams. Curse my luck, really.
But thankfully despite the fever at least I'm still up and still mobile. Prelims are in 5 days and I need the time to study.
Study. Hah. That words leaves a bitter aftertaste. Study. How overused can this word be? It's the word every parent uses on their child, to 'whip' them into shape ( I hate that word in inverted commas too, just so you know) and for which all friends use on each other. I'm studying, they say. I want to study, I need to study. Worse still, I need to mug, become a mugger, they say as well. Stupid, and stupid again. Study? Gesture like some raving mad dog about the goodness of studying? That's disgusting. Tell me more about how you need to study, how you've been studying so hard. I give you the polite nod. The knowing smile. Because that's all you deserve really- superficialities. I never did think you were mature/deep enough to understand most complexities, anyway. And studying is just one of them. Fake it. Hide behind a facade. That's what I know you're best at.
As for me, I'm doing what I can. There's no need to nag at me about my study methods, how and when to study. Please. 18 years, of my life, and you think I'm not well accustomed?
So study? What study? I'll do what I can. As always, use that term to mock me, and I'm pretty sure you're in for a hard time.
Study. Hah. That words leaves a bitter aftertaste. Study. How overused can this word be? It's the word every parent uses on their child, to 'whip' them into shape ( I hate that word in inverted commas too, just so you know) and for which all friends use on each other. I'm studying, they say. I want to study, I need to study. Worse still, I need to mug, become a mugger, they say as well. Stupid, and stupid again. Study? Gesture like some raving mad dog about the goodness of studying? That's disgusting. Tell me more about how you need to study, how you've been studying so hard. I give you the polite nod. The knowing smile. Because that's all you deserve really- superficialities. I never did think you were mature/deep enough to understand most complexities, anyway. And studying is just one of them. Fake it. Hide behind a facade. That's what I know you're best at.
As for me, I'm doing what I can. There's no need to nag at me about my study methods, how and when to study. Please. 18 years, of my life, and you think I'm not well accustomed?
So study? What study? I'll do what I can. As always, use that term to mock me, and I'm pretty sure you're in for a hard time.
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