I don't know how things turned out this way. I want to clear it out, but I don't know if it's possible anymore seeing as the problem has escalated. I never had such a worry since sec 1, and I never thought I'd have to deal with a problem like the again when I'm older. Bitching behind my back, calling me names that no one else seems to find correct or true - this is a problem I thought primary school children faced. All these issues I have ignored simply, hoping that it would be outgrown in a short span of time, but looks like I've been proven otherwise,as sad as it may sound.

For the first time, I think I finally have to prove we're not ignorant of all the happenings. And that we've never been ignorant of it all. I'm stuck in a ridiculous conflict - being nice, or being extremely cold, and by choosing the former, I thought we'd still be friend.
But it certainly looks like things didn't turn out the way I wanted it to be- friends. In fact it's proven itself quite the opposite.
Whatever it may be, I'm glad to be able to fight it with someone. To be able to talk to someone about it. To know that despite the 3 weeks of break, I'd have someone to look forward to seeing.

It's a nice feeling. And a really happy one at that.

I just wish I didn't have all those problems to deal with, problems that needn't even have been created in the first place. At least I'm not alone in knowing that.

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