Leaving for US tomorrow morning.
I'm leaving with mixed feelings, really. I know I'll have a good time. US is the one place I've always wanted to go since.. time immemorial? Yeah. I wanted it, and now I've got it. Plus a stopover in Seoul means that I kind of get to see Korea as well. Then there's San Jose, Ventura Beach, Las Vegas, the Grand Canyon, Disneyland and Universal Studios (again). I'm thankful for all these, really, because I know it's a luxury and a privilege to be able to travel.
And I would usually be extremely excited if not for just one thing.
Chu.
I've probably mentioned this already, but I miss that boy. (I'm sorry, it's going to be a little mushy from here on down. ) I hate the fact that I'm leaving on a Friday, which means that just as he books out on Saturday, I'll be up in the air and heading west. That also means a 16 hour flight and a 16 hour time difference. And with Chu being in NS, well, the likelihood of us being able to call is close to almost none. Plus the charges are crazy, which means I'm not going to hear his voice for 2 weeks, or 3 weekends. Midway through my trip he'll be leaving for Tekong as well for his field camp, which means that that's absolutely no contact. It saddens me, somehow, because I miss the fact that I'll be able to hear his voice each night as I get ready for bed.
Despite all this, I know we'll survive. We survived confinement, and we'll survive this. If our relationship is meant to be, we'll survive it, somehow, because if it doesn't even survive this, then well, I guess we weren't meant to be together in the first place. Negative thoughts aside, if both parties put their effort into it, then it'll work out, despite the absences. And effort wise, I know both of us put in our very best, so there's no reason to worry. I don't want it to be a case of just ' oh, if God doesn't think we'll make it, then sua, whatever', but more a case of 'I'll put in my effort and he will too so that God sees we're worthwhile.'
And for you, well, I'm just going to say, take care, and I'll see you again soon. Survive Tekong, and come out stronger (mentally) such that we'll know that we can weather any other obstacle in the future. I miss you already, but its just another 17 days, and we'll be okay::) Love you:)
I'm leaving with mixed feelings, really. I know I'll have a good time. US is the one place I've always wanted to go since.. time immemorial? Yeah. I wanted it, and now I've got it. Plus a stopover in Seoul means that I kind of get to see Korea as well. Then there's San Jose, Ventura Beach, Las Vegas, the Grand Canyon, Disneyland and Universal Studios (again). I'm thankful for all these, really, because I know it's a luxury and a privilege to be able to travel.
And I would usually be extremely excited if not for just one thing.
Chu.
I've probably mentioned this already, but I miss that boy. (I'm sorry, it's going to be a little mushy from here on down. ) I hate the fact that I'm leaving on a Friday, which means that just as he books out on Saturday, I'll be up in the air and heading west. That also means a 16 hour flight and a 16 hour time difference. And with Chu being in NS, well, the likelihood of us being able to call is close to almost none. Plus the charges are crazy, which means I'm not going to hear his voice for 2 weeks, or 3 weekends. Midway through my trip he'll be leaving for Tekong as well for his field camp, which means that that's absolutely no contact. It saddens me, somehow, because I miss the fact that I'll be able to hear his voice each night as I get ready for bed.
Despite all this, I know we'll survive. We survived confinement, and we'll survive this. If our relationship is meant to be, we'll survive it, somehow, because if it doesn't even survive this, then well, I guess we weren't meant to be together in the first place. Negative thoughts aside, if both parties put their effort into it, then it'll work out, despite the absences. And effort wise, I know both of us put in our very best, so there's no reason to worry. I don't want it to be a case of just ' oh, if God doesn't think we'll make it, then sua, whatever', but more a case of 'I'll put in my effort and he will too so that God sees we're worthwhile.'
And for you, well, I'm just going to say, take care, and I'll see you again soon. Survive Tekong, and come out stronger (mentally) such that we'll know that we can weather any other obstacle in the future. I miss you already, but its just another 17 days, and we'll be okay::) Love you:)
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