I reread some of our old conversations today on MSN. Back when we were still friends in math class and when you started having a thing for me.
Tonight, for some reason, I reread some of our old conversations we had on MSN. Back then when we were still friends in Math Class and when you started having a thing for me. I read about how you'd skip Scouts for her, wait till 10pm at night just to see her, how she used to make you feel so happy by just being there for you, how you took 6 months to get over her, how miserable you were without her. And that old jealous feeling crops up again. Would you do the same for me? I know it's effed up to be thinking about this, but I can't help but think how you'd react if I were to someday (note I said WERE) leave you. I think about whether or not you'll be sad, whether or not you'll cry if I left you. Whether your reaction will be more adverse, seeing as I mean more to you, and how much more averse. Because I don't want you to have the same reaction as you did with her.
Then I remember.
Skip Scouts? I know you'd do the same. In fact you've already done that. But I don't want you to skip Scouts for me, because I want you to enjoy that part of your life too. But it's sweet that you did, and honestly? I appreciate it.
Cry if I left? I probably wouldn't even have to go that far. You already did when you couldn't see me for 2 weeks. What more if I left?
Wait till 10pm for me ( at the expense of your studies back then)? Yeah, I know you would. Not that there's an opportunity to do so now, seeing as you're in NS, but I know you would had there been an opportunity, anyway. Probably more than a couple of hours, even. Maybe days. Or even years, just to see me.
You once told me you'd even die for me. That's something new to me. No one's bothered to care for me to such a great extent before, and it's touching. How I'm naturally just your type, how you can be natural and all around me instead of putting on a show like you used to, how I'm naturally good with all animal , how I'm the only one who loves the outdoors and can put up with the hectic army life...Yeah.
I'm probably sounding like a jealous lover or something, but I'm probably just pms-ing. Plus jet lag's causing me to lose sleep too. Yes, sometimes I get insecure. Then I look back and I remember that there's nothing to be insecure about. Sometimes doing these things is good because it keeps me in check, and makes sure I don't become complacent.
I'm better, I know that. I know.
Tonight, for some reason, I reread some of our old conversations we had on MSN. Back then when we were still friends in Math Class and when you started having a thing for me. I read about how you'd skip Scouts for her, wait till 10pm at night just to see her, how she used to make you feel so happy by just being there for you, how you took 6 months to get over her, how miserable you were without her. And that old jealous feeling crops up again. Would you do the same for me? I know it's effed up to be thinking about this, but I can't help but think how you'd react if I were to someday (note I said WERE) leave you. I think about whether or not you'll be sad, whether or not you'll cry if I left you. Whether your reaction will be more adverse, seeing as I mean more to you, and how much more averse. Because I don't want you to have the same reaction as you did with her.
Then I remember.
Skip Scouts? I know you'd do the same. In fact you've already done that. But I don't want you to skip Scouts for me, because I want you to enjoy that part of your life too. But it's sweet that you did, and honestly? I appreciate it.
Cry if I left? I probably wouldn't even have to go that far. You already did when you couldn't see me for 2 weeks. What more if I left?
Wait till 10pm for me ( at the expense of your studies back then)? Yeah, I know you would. Not that there's an opportunity to do so now, seeing as you're in NS, but I know you would had there been an opportunity, anyway. Probably more than a couple of hours, even. Maybe days. Or even years, just to see me.
You once told me you'd even die for me. That's something new to me. No one's bothered to care for me to such a great extent before, and it's touching. How I'm naturally just your type, how you can be natural and all around me instead of putting on a show like you used to, how I'm naturally good with all animal , how I'm the only one who loves the outdoors and can put up with the hectic army life...Yeah.
I'm probably sounding like a jealous lover or something, but I'm probably just pms-ing. Plus jet lag's causing me to lose sleep too. Yes, sometimes I get insecure. Then I look back and I remember that there's nothing to be insecure about. Sometimes doing these things is good because it keeps me in check, and makes sure I don't become complacent.
I'm better, I know that. I know.
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