I remember how I posted something about learning how to live as an army girlfriend 5 days into his enlistment sometime back. Guess what? Come this Saturday, it would have been a month. A whole month of NS.
Time seems to pass really quickly for me out here, and in a way, I like this new routine because living in the midst of my A level preparations, time passes quicker than normal, which would also mean that time for him would pass equally as quickly.
I miss the times we could just meet up anywhere, anytime, and as and when we felt like it. It's the one thing that I really miss, and that's the one thing I hate the most about him being in there. The fact that we have limited time to see each other and spend time with each other.
I guess that also accounts for the fact that we've both become much more independent now. I miss him still, and no less- but I'm coping with his absence. With a few texts a day and a call, and that's only because it's the PTP stage. BMT will be a whole different story altogether, or so I hear from what he's told me so far, but honestly, the fact that we've lived through one whole month of NS without major upheavals in our relationship probably proves that our relationship really has something solid in it this time. And when my A levels come, I'll face this one with even more independence, because that will be a trying period for both of us.
It's rare to finally find someone with the same ideals as I do, and honestly, I think you can guess from the way I'm being so open about it, that I'm becoming more lax with stealth mode. It's more like semi-stealth mode now, seeing as more and more people are getting to know of this, and contrary to what we originally thought, people aren't judging us, but are rather, happy for us. Which is a strange, but very relieving situation indeed. Though I suppose I can't really rest on my laurels- there are people out there who'll still judge, because through some warped mindset or other they derive happiness from seeing others in misery. JC has a lot of that. High school drama, even though we're supposed to be acting like adults. Some people just don't ever grow up.
That aside, I'd say, judge all you want, because I'm leaving this place. I'm leaving this college, and don't get me wrong, I don't hate CJ. I've met some really true friends in this place and I'll be sad to have to go separate ways. It's just the gossip, scandalous parts of CJ that I really hate- because there are so few people who are actually mature enough to act their age. Most people act otherwise, judging, gossiping and spreading untrue scandals and tales. If I were given the option, there should be a division by maturity, and not by age.
Alright, enough about CJ. I don't want to defame CJ, because, as I said previously, I love the friends I have met in there and I like the place. In fact, I even met him there, back then before he left CJ. As a recruit now, life is very different, but as always, there'll be different phases of our lives, and with it, different and perhaps tougher challenges. It's how we learn to adapt.
Time seems to pass really quickly for me out here, and in a way, I like this new routine because living in the midst of my A level preparations, time passes quicker than normal, which would also mean that time for him would pass equally as quickly.
I miss the times we could just meet up anywhere, anytime, and as and when we felt like it. It's the one thing that I really miss, and that's the one thing I hate the most about him being in there. The fact that we have limited time to see each other and spend time with each other.
I guess that also accounts for the fact that we've both become much more independent now. I miss him still, and no less- but I'm coping with his absence. With a few texts a day and a call, and that's only because it's the PTP stage. BMT will be a whole different story altogether, or so I hear from what he's told me so far, but honestly, the fact that we've lived through one whole month of NS without major upheavals in our relationship probably proves that our relationship really has something solid in it this time. And when my A levels come, I'll face this one with even more independence, because that will be a trying period for both of us.
It's rare to finally find someone with the same ideals as I do, and honestly, I think you can guess from the way I'm being so open about it, that I'm becoming more lax with stealth mode. It's more like semi-stealth mode now, seeing as more and more people are getting to know of this, and contrary to what we originally thought, people aren't judging us, but are rather, happy for us. Which is a strange, but very relieving situation indeed. Though I suppose I can't really rest on my laurels- there are people out there who'll still judge, because through some warped mindset or other they derive happiness from seeing others in misery. JC has a lot of that. High school drama, even though we're supposed to be acting like adults. Some people just don't ever grow up.
That aside, I'd say, judge all you want, because I'm leaving this place. I'm leaving this college, and don't get me wrong, I don't hate CJ. I've met some really true friends in this place and I'll be sad to have to go separate ways. It's just the gossip, scandalous parts of CJ that I really hate- because there are so few people who are actually mature enough to act their age. Most people act otherwise, judging, gossiping and spreading untrue scandals and tales. If I were given the option, there should be a division by maturity, and not by age.
Alright, enough about CJ. I don't want to defame CJ, because, as I said previously, I love the friends I have met in there and I like the place. In fact, I even met him there, back then before he left CJ. As a recruit now, life is very different, but as always, there'll be different phases of our lives, and with it, different and perhaps tougher challenges. It's how we learn to adapt.
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