We went for AEP today. It was a visit to the eh, what? the something-something museum :/ i cant even rmb the name. It was really quite funny, because the museum was really dark and since it was supposed to be a museum for fashion, the only exhibit in there were clothes, clothes and more clothes. And they weren't even everyday wear- they were super extragavant. It was really gothic, which made the atmosphere kinda creepy. To make matters worse, they played this really bone-chilling fit for a funeral, and that made it even WORSE. Shermaine and I sat on the red ( Oh, of all colours) velvet chair and slacked our time away. Then we realised we had to complete the worksheet. argh. so we chiong the worksheet la. drew and drew. completed it in the end :D

Then we came back to school, and reality set in again. We still had to complete our CDL competition preparations. Okay that was really quite tiring, plus we had homework to do and all... Its really exhausting sometimes =( We're due to start on photography but it got pushed back... sigh.. anyway here are some 'good' memories of our trip there...

Dont speak of what i told you on MSN pls pls pls okok??

I've never felt so lost or dejected in my life. Its not the worst, surprisingly. I've probably been through worse times. But to realise that you've lost touch with what you are supposed to be doing- Its a really frightening thought. Iam not slipping into depression, I know that. Iam just worried that i crack although I don't know why. My work load isnt THAT heavy. I think its my results. IDK la. Iam messed up.



I think I guessed right, for once. It seems like you cant keep in touch with someone whom you've met only once. Like they say, It takes 2 hands to clap. If the other hand isnt willing, no sound is produced. How often do we fall into this sort of situation? Its not about who's right and who's wrong here. I think we all admit that we all treat different friends differently and that also goes for their responses, and the way they treat you, as a person. Is it because of Personality, character, money, looks, or , a more sinister, ulterior motive? We dont know. Only time will tell.



Do we all rank our friends? Do we place certain friends above others? Is it possible to tell? Let me give you an eg. Say you receive 2 SMS messages. One is from your best friend, another is from someone you dont really like. Who do we tend to reply to 1st, or even reply at all?

When we befriend someone, we hope to remain in contact with that friend for as long as it takes for the other person to clap back. No one starts a friendship hoping it would end. But when it does, who do we blame? Ourselves, or your friend?
I've heard that they describe ex-friends as friends that are dead and gone. Are we also psychologically hurt? The emotional pain of a breakup in friendship? Through all these we can learn how to be stronger despite all our problems, we can learn h0w to set aside equal time for all our friends. And we can learn to shut out those problems in our minds and leave them where they belong- for the dead.

The family maid went home today. So sad D; Iam home alone now..

I know Iam afraid of something. But I dont quite know what. What is this nagging feeling all about? I want to work but something is holding my back, just like some sleigh dog with a rein. :(
Talk about fright. Iam losing out. I know it. And I will gain it back. Yes i will. I can. I must.

Hey, photo:)

OMG. I forgot its earth hour!!!

Are your cards good or bad?

Just yesterday, my uncle came and gave me a book. It was about how a family nearly fell apart when the husband became paralysed due to an accident involving the air force, and how a labrador retriever brought it all back again.

If we were to sit and think, wouldnt you consider yourself fortunate that we do not land up in that situation? How life is so short and, to a certain extent, frightening? Time passes to quickly I cant even catch my breath, to shout, "Stop! " and have the world stop right there with you. There's so many changes happening to us, much faster than we can absorb. Its like being spoon fed a certain amount of information whether or not we can cope. Isnt it strange how we meet certain people, certain things, good or bad, and be thankful, or curse ourselves at the luck? Some believe in fate, and that they should go with the flow. Life's funny. Its like being dealt a bad hand of cards. We cant change the unavoidable, we can only find the best way to play it. Like death. Sigh. Ok. This is really a very morbid subject. I shall drop it. Anyone I know, talk to me, call me, say something, PLEASE!!!

Sigh. Didnt manage to get online yest. So i'll go back in time and blog about yesterday.

Went for AEP. We were due to start on photography (:D )which Shermaine and I were both looking forward to. Unfortunately, our AEP teacher delayed it due to a time contrain. I think its still best we concentrate on one thing 1st, before trying to attempt another. As the CDL competition deadline was just around the corner, we made, or rather tried to make , our marquee, which is a miniature of the actual sculpture we were to do. Besides all the prep work and all:(

We started on the making of the marquee, and as most of us used wire mesh. While that worked out fine for those whose sculptures were flat, it didnt quite work out for me as mine was a solid sculpture. After trying for ages, I ( together with the help of Shermaine, Elizabeth, May Teng and Kimberly) I finally settled on foam. And that's when it started.

The foam was FULL ,chockful of dust. It was green, so it produced green dust finer than a grain of desert sand. I chocked. People around me chocked too. And my teacher commented that I have to clear up the classroom. But i didnt really. Haha. And our uniforms. Woohoo. It looked so green it could have been mistaken for the St. Margaret's uniform. So Shermaine and I came up with a plan.

We went in the toilet ( the handicapped one) which was big enough to accomodate the 2 of us. Then we took off our pinafore( Shermaine wasnt wearing shorts, mind you, but i was:D)
and SHOOK IT. AHAHAHA. So funny. We were laughing so hard Shermaine nearly laughed milk out of her nose. ( Which, I'd pay good money to see). She was practically standing there in her underwear and white blouse. No i didnt see her. But we saw each other enough already in camp :/ .

Decided it wasnt enough and that our uniform was still dusty. So we poured water over the front of our uniform till our pinafores were a shade darker than normal. It just rained so it was COLD. Then we went back into the air conditioned AEP room which made us feel COLDER. Then the teacher lowered the temperature. Which turned Shermaine and I into walking ice lollies. No dont try to eat us.
That's basically it. But well, it was really one of the more eventful AEP lessons.:D

Today I went to sch like a bag of nerves. We had dental check up for our class that day and it really was not joke. Iam DAMN DAMN scared of the dentist k, I confess. Michele and Shermaine heard enough of my moaning and groaning in class. So i shant moan about it here since its over and i thought i'd never live past this day. I concurred my fear of the dentist and her clinic!! haha so i lived to tell the tale. It was quite painful la. But bearable. Ouch. i can still feel the pain just talking about the experience. the numbness.. the cold water.. the freaking salt which the dentist freaking sprayed into my wound.. Ahhh...

Another uneventful day. Lets see...
Emath in the morning, the worse time, 1st period of the day. continued from where we stopped yesterday, Matrices. And this time its problem sums. How fun...

Then we had Physics. Some Mass and weight I think. Something about the moon and the earth. Shows how much I was paying attention. Super funny la our Phy teacher said, " You must put in a lot of effort to do this." Shermiane and I heard," YOu must put in a lot of F word to do this. " OMG OMG. Imagine. I'll be brought to detention for sure. And we were seated right in front of him. I wonder what others sitting further away heard.

PE. No PE! Our PE teacher was sick. So we had a free period-or so we thought until out chem teacher came in and taught us the use of the Burette and the Pipette. The Burette looked kinda wrong :/

SS. I spent the entire morning trying to chiong my SS hmk, although I never heard her giving us any hmk in the 1st place. She didnt collect it though.

RECESS!!!!

Lit. Its back to the Raisin in the Sun. How a raisin managed to get into the sun i have no idea.

EL. One word -BORING. We have pay of all those sketch books for newpaper articles and the Audacity of Hope. Which we dont understand and dont read. The only thing I want to pay for is attention. But that too, i dont really want.

Chinese. HAHA damn funny. We were going through our oral pieces when there was this question about zi sha. Idk how. AHAHAHA.

i've updated the post Just for laughs. Go and seee:D

Today's our 1st Practical Chemistry lesson. We were supposed to be burning Napthelene/Natalie whatever. Spent 1/2 an hour staring at a white powdery substance bubbling away inside a testube.We felt like we were bubbling ourselves. SO HOT. Our teacher said it was going to stink of mothballs, however that smells like. Like when I was younger I thought we were supposed to throw the mothballs at the moths to kill them. Now i know better :/
Eng, We were told to read Obama's Audacity of Hope, which we couldnt understand and thus found it bo-ring. We're to read pg 125 to something Iam sure. Well... I'll do my best. Though It'll go in one side and come out the other.
HHF today was super weird la. We were doing some weird actions which looked strangely like a cross between dancing and aerobics. Sigh..
Then Emaths, and we had a test. OMG OMG.
Geog, Tabitha pretended as it she lost out mindmap which we were to do, but she kept it all that while. LOL. So Lame. REALLY.

Damn dentist appointment. I don't wanna go! But i have to.
I agreed to be Shermaine's punching bag. She took it literally. :/
Iam out. of stuff to write.

A note to someone and more..

I've learnt a new lesson. Friends come and go. Iam still unsure as to whether friends will remain in contact when out of reach. When someone has attained something they've wanted very much, we should be happy for them. Yet we find ouselves in a postition where we look at ourselves and wonder, will i ever be like them? will I ever have a chance to obtain something I've wanted very much in my life? From a friend, I have learnt this lesson: Work for your dreams, and they will work for you.

Why do we remain as mediocre people? As the world around us revolves, we find ourselves outnumbered and may even get pushed out to fend for ourselves. We lose the safety of the crowd. This crowd Iam refering to are : friends.

Why are friends so important? Is it just this sense of belonging, or is it someone to talk to in times of need? How about friends who just pick you up and throw you away when you're not needed? When friends go away, its a natural reaction to feel sad. But when friends go away for a dream they've wanted, should we swallow out sadness and congratulate them, or should we openly show that you're upset? Its a troublesome dilemma. I should think the former is better.

To my friend who's leaving nex month: Take care and all the best. Its not often you get to go overseas for training to make the best use of it! I'll see you when you're back k.. I know this is quite early but since I just realised I'd better say fast. I know i sound like you're leaving forever but since i've been screaming all my problems to you i'll bottle it up for the next 2. Iam happy for you that you've found what you really like to do. So go for it:D wo men zhi chi ni:)

Just for laughs

Some humour:)
Not all are mine though.

Said ," Girls, You must put in a lot of effort to achieve this amount of accuracy."
Heard," Girls, You must put in a lot of F word to achieve this amount of accuracy."
Haha. Imagine if i really did that. I'll be brought into detention.

Said ," My brother is going to ACS Barker School."
Heard," My brother is going to buckle his shoe."

Said ," I broke my back."
Heard," Give me my Billabong bag."

Said ," We celebrated your birthday in 2003."
Heard," We celebrated your birthday in a cemetery :/"

Said ," This is your new coach."
Heard ," Please take off your clothes."

One of them is quite sick. Iam not going to write it here. But I'll give you what's said.

Said, "I thought you want to show me your Maple(story)?"
Heard," I thought you want to show me your _________?"
Haha. Go ahead. Guess what's its been heard as.

Just for laugher:)

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Why do I feel that Iam being stretched to my maximum? Like the air around has intensified so much that I can breathe in the warm air and it appears that Iam not breathing in anything at all? I cant break into the 'signature' laugh that Michele once commented on me, its like i've lost my voice to speak and my only voice is to cry. But its weak. I know it is. Because the last thing you want to do is to keep in a cry. When you do, you get bloated. And when you get bloated, you want to cry. Its a vicious cycle. Am I just being paranoid? Am I really that afraid of losing someone? Maybe i am. Maybe Iam just paranoid.

Buddy walk

Went for some buddy walkl thing today, it was quite weird actually, because we were'tn actually assigned any down syndrom ppl who were due to take part in the walk. It turned out that it was supposed to be a three-to-one affair, but in reality very few DSA ppl turned up, so as a result, it was something like 2 classes to 1 DSA person. Basically, we walked around Singapore and got 6 hrs CIP. i dont quite mind doing this again. I need those CIP hours:D

After the walk, which ended at around 11.30am, Shermaine, Michele and I somehow managed to find Marina Square Shopping centre in which we had a mini debate over whether we should eat Subway or Yoshinoya.

We chose Yoshinoya over Subway in the end. I ended up buying Teriyaki Chicken rice, which was Shermaine's reccomendation. Not too bad really. Credit Shermaine.Michele bought ebi and teriyaki chicken combo. Sigh. This was more than I would have expected to spend on a meal but well.... its a once-in-a-blue-moon affair so might as well give a treat:D

Half way along, Shermaine decided to be funny and start taking stupid photos of both Michele and I. I think i must have got kinda mad, cos Shermaine was wriggling around and asking me not to use violence. Haha. And we were in a public area. City Hall MRT in fact. Its a good thing we werent clad in school attire. But actually we were, a little. School related shirt. Sigh.

I took a damn lame video of Mich and Sher while in Yoshinoya. But since its lame i shall not upload it. unless they annoy me. xD

Got onto the platform at City Hall MRT station, and there inside there is practically like a maze. It was enough to give us a headache. We went to 2 different platforms before finally arriving at the right one-right on time. While in the train, we got kinda bored, and starting taking photos.

Going for buddy walk with the down syndrom ppl tmr. Hope it doesnt rain :/

Piss me off

I dont really give a thought to what you think of me. Iam more resourceful than you think ok. I think having brought me up as a boy is already good enough, and yet you want to make things worse by making me run and all this other crap. Now you say that you so called ' want me to be stronger' and ' should learn how to fish, not i give you the fish.' huh. That's a freaking stupid reason. DAMMIT Iam not a freaking boy!! What the hell do you need to train me to be to tough for!! Like you're going to get a retribution when i grow up? NO WAY! Iam way better than you think I am but you never even freaking give me a little leeway!! Then because of that you say that EVERY DAMN THING has to be done to my own. Huh. Looks the girl here pls. You are, or me?

Maturity- a narrative compo

I was lying on my back gazing at the speckles of white clouds skidding across the velvet of blue sky. The sun burned down in hot rays which scorched the front of my neck. The grass below me itched and scratched with minute bugs as my head rested against the overlap of my two arms crossed over each other.Above, the canopy of green leaves parted such that occasionaly, a glint of sunlight passed through to penetrate me eyes.Beside me, my 2 friends sat and leaned against the trunk of the oak tree which was shielding me from the direct sunlight.

We worked as voluntary workers in an orphanage, Shermaine, Michele, and I, and we would get our due rest daily for a little over a quarter of an hour. As voluntary workers, it was queer that we had to adhere to the rules of the orphanage as much as the orphans do. It was simple, but strict. We were not allowed to eat during our 'working' hours, and we were forbidden to slacken at any other time other than the allocated rest hour.As for clothing, We were dressed in pale blue uniforms with a dark blue skirt, clothes of what children would wear. When the bell pealed, we had to hurry back to the tired old house in which the orphans retired.There, we would man the counter for potential parents and guardians on the look out for a child to adopt.

Just as i turned over on my side, and closed my eyes in the summertime bliss, we heard a distant but distinct chime of the bell. My eyes popped open and I took to my heels, just as Shermaine and Michele did. Racing across the corridor the warm air stung my eyes and made me squint, we danced through the gate and right outside the door to the house, I felt a sharp pain I had never experienced before. It ripped through my abdomen like a bullet. I gasped in white hot agony as the pain dug into my body, sucking up my every breath and making my eyes tear. I crumpled into a ball on the grey tiled floor, fighting for the strength to stand and the courage to maintain my dignity. As I gazed upwards, I saw the concerned faces of my friends filling up my entire frame of vision, moving in closer and closer to me as cold swear broke out in little beads on my face. As quickly as ii came, the pain ebbed away, and i stood up unsteadily, not trusting myself should the pain return.i looked at Shermaine- she seemed confused and shaken, Michele, however, was smiling secretly to herself. Guiding me towards the bathroom, she pushed me into a cubicle and handed me a new set of clothes. It was different, no longer the childish blue skirt that we've been wearing but instead that of what the women in the orphanage wore. When I turned around and saw the thick blood on my dress, however, i couldn not supress the scream.Then i realised. A caterpillar then, a butterfly now.

I dont want to run tonight!! But i know i have to.. sadly..:( Very sian. And am still still sian to write. So bb for now.

Today

Geesh. Looks like someone already told me to wake up. Anyway, I'll wirte something more positive for a change.

Went out at around 1pm with my parents. Went to Sembawang shopping Mall.. the one which recntly opened.

Couldnt find any carpark. So we detoured and went to a nearby coffee shop to eat.

Walked around. My dad bought an umbrella.

At around 2 we returned back to the shopping centre. This time the carpark was clear but we had to park at the rooftop lots.. because there werent any in the covered ones..

went to Giant. My dad saw another umbrella the same. But it was more ex. so we cliched a gd deal :D

Forgot to fill petrol and the car nearly stalled on the road. But we made it to the petrol station alright:)

Sigh. There's no one to talk to on MSN now that Sher and Michele are away at camp. i want to follow them! But i cant. Cos Iam not a guider.:(

Self talk 2 Dont bother reading..

I have to learn to be happier. Where has the old me gone to? The wind? i cant even remember the last time I was over the moon. Someone said I was overpressurizing myself. I think about that statement. How true is that? I know for a fact i think studies are my life. But yet others who dont think that way do better than me. And when i finally face it reality slaps me in the face, jolting me awake and making me realise that what i've been doing all this while doesnt count. Iam starting to slide behind my work and this frightens me the most. Iam still living in a dream like state. I want to wake up. I have to wake up. I dont have the courage to wake up and face reality. But i know its still there for me, rearing its ugly head when i least expect. Let me get up and face this monster! Take me out of this dream! I need someone to shake me hard and scream," wake up!!! " in my face! Its here and it wont run away. Iam still afraid. All this self talk is coming to a NIL. Its slipping away. But this time I wont let it. I must seize it and give it a freaking hard box.That's the only way I'll ever succeed.

Is it possible to remain friends with someone whom you've met only once? I would like to think so.

Another quiz.

The real you:

Here is the analysis:

You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys.

You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

TAKE NOTE: I DONT HAVE A BOYFRIEND.

Quiz

Tried out this quiz. Its a personality quiz.

Get to know yourself better:

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love
you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

pic!

HAHA. this photo damn cutee! Shermaine's pet, Lollipop, and my pet, Frostfires hugging each other in pet society:D

Another compo. I know its boring.

Describe the feeling of loneliness and suspense.

When I returned to the place i had called home, I realised that the heat which came down in hard orange rays scorched the pavement in short sharp bursts of light. flowers wilted, trees sagged under the very glare of the intense heat, people burried themselves in the comfort of their own home, those who were unlucky enough to be out of their home melted against the stinging heat of the sidewalk. Faces squinted against the sun, the very insides of their bodies were bathed in persperation. I knew that place as an old city i grew up in, and also where a wonderful love story blossomed. However,time had stopped still. The village remained as just as i remembered it. The squart little attap houses sat glumly along the grass, which was piled with clothes of different colours. The only patch of grass which wasn't green or covered with pieces of fabric revealed a dry coloured yellowed grass.Here and there, the cloth fluttered feebly in the stillness and then revealed yet another portion of brown grass. The atmosphere was tense and stretched, as if the very air i was breathing in tightened like a rubber band in my lungs. The road curled in elegant curved movements, almost snake like. Somewhere down this asphalt road, which was spasely covered, a lone dog howled. The very action filled the air with a mournful sound which made my toes curl up inside my shoes. The thudding of my shoes against the pothhole filled dirt track had a dull permanace to it, even though the sound sounded stangely familiar to me back in the city, it sounded alien to me now. Above, the swirling vortex of clouds twisted in thick cream like movements. Somewhere ahead, i spotted a black body of a dog. As i came up closer to it, it revealed itself as a german shepherd, its yellow eyes bore into mine with hardness matching that of the sun's. Its thick glossy fur was matted with little knots. From between spurts of short panting breath, the dog bore its stained yellow teeth as it moved awkwardly around the rusty chain which drew its boundaries. It barked. Then our eyes connected. As I waited for the lunge, I squeezed my eyes shut in a last minute effort to divulge surrender. The time had come for a battle with nature.

boredom

Listening to chinese songs Shermaine sent to me. Not too bad really.. Quite nice:) Credit goes to Shermaine and her BBT for introducing me:D We had class photo taking yesterday..And the freakin, freaking report book... Seriously. Sigh. Must work harder. WORK HARDER!!!! DONT SLACK!!!!

quiz

What is your true fear?
My true fear: Losing someone

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Death
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
Disappointment
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inner self talk

I can't say I enjoy it when others know Iam about to go for an exam or a test, and then just before they tell me," You can do it. " Its not that i dont condone their encouragement. I just find the stress increasing because if i don't, I just get this naggin feeling that i've let them down. This makes it harder to think ahead and face my future obstacles. and it makes me wallow in self pity like a pig in mud. But i think if others say," I have all the faith in you, go in and give your best shot." is really more of a prefered statement. If i do a self reflection, i think that what hurts me most is not diong well although you've tried really , and i mean REALLY hard. Let me give you an example. Lit. Apart from being horribly unaware that my style of writing is totally off the mark, I also elaborate too little and the lack of understanding on the story makes the things a whole lot worse.

Writing out my feelings on my O level results in the previous post reanacts the entire scene, and it makes the situation so real i can literally see myself in that toilet, the paper, even the sensation of crying my eyes out. Iam really afraid of disappointing my parents, and if i do badly i'd rather they scold me then let me off.

The embarassement... the fear... the total disregard i have for my studies by blogging right now... the sense of loss... the feelings... the sensation... Surprising how a piece of paper can affect your whole life.. but its not the paper i guess.. its whats written on it..

Quiz

Got this quiz from Shermaine's blog. Was really bored. But the result is scary :/

Quiz: What is your true fear?


You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person.
You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night.
You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy.
Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life.
You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with.
Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times.
Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.(i wish!)

The crying process

You see the words go blurry before your eyes and the paper you are holding crumples up in the palm of your hand, just like your feelings and the last thing on your mind is what is going on around you. Outside, the pelting rain fell like tears onto the leaves of the trees below, dripping in never ending slumber.

You start to feel overwhelmed, and your insides feels like jelly that's just about to fall apart. You try to squint your eyes to prevent the ocean of tears backing up behind your eyes like dam about to overflow its banks. The lump in your throat grows and soon the heat rushes up behind your nose, and at this juncture you know that your nose is starting to appear a bright cherry red.

Running blindly out of the room, the surroundings melt into a myraid of colours which rushes out behind you, the wind whisting in your ears and the throbbing sensation of your heart in your fingertips.

Somewhere behind you, a shout of laughter is heard. Cries of ," I did it!! " make your insides squirm and once again the tears, already stinging the corners of your eyes, threaten to spill out in front of the entire world. For the 1st time, the 1st sign of a sniff envolopes into your throat, and you hurriedly gulp in the lump ,which now feel like a small hard rock, back into the bottomless pit of your stomach.Your hands, meanwhile, comes up as if on auto to your eyes, which forces whatever tears out. Your face turnes a bright red,, but then suddenly realises that your eyes are covered by your hands.

Bursting open the toilet door, you face the pale cream and pink toilet, scacely decorated by little minute flowers adorning the rough concrete faces of the wall. You look up, and the feeling of being alone hits you so hard in the face you can feel the slap. After a while, you realise your hands are sodden from the tears that have spilt out and over the edges of your eyes. overflow. The toilet is empty, and the sudden urge to conceal yourself inside a toilet and cubicle, where no one will ever see you cry, crops up. Facing the mirror, your eyes travel from the mirror image's eyes,which are stained red, to your own dejected self facing the little reflective glass.

For a moment, you wish that the face in the mirror isnt yours, and that you can be out there, just like the owner of the person who cried," I did it!" and screaming that phrase out yourself. Reality sets in.
There's no one in the toilet. The rain isnt heavy. But it matches your feelings and this time, you run into the toilet and lock yourself up. You stare at the pale pink door for a minute. Then the hot, melting tears pricked out behind your eyes and this time, it overflows. But there's no one to see you. So you just let it well up and fall, just like the rain. Sniff and all. The door bangs open and your 1st reaction is to stifle the next sob. But then you remember that you cant be seen, so it doesnt matter, the need to stifle is redundant. Turning over the the palm of your hand, you look at the once clean sheet of paper now morphed into a soaked, paper mush. The cause of your entire journey. There it was, printed in big bold letters, your name and Class. And on the top, it says O level results.Underneath, your eyes are only drawn to a small number, but the difference and impact it has on your life is astonishing. 25 points.

DAMN IT

YOU make me so pissed. Not as if i freakin interfear with what you do anyway. My stuff, my thoughts, my decisions. I can do whatever i want to do in here, YOu really think you can stop me? HUh. Its called mine for a REASON. Dont understand English? Then you can just back right out now. Take your freaking anger out on someone else!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GIVE ME SOME PRIVACY!!!!!! U HAVE NO RIGHT TO DIG INTO MY OWN STUFF AND THINK ITS YOURS. THINK YOU CAN RULE ME LIFE?! THINK AGAIN.

Series of unfortunate events

Series of unfortunate events( which happened today):



-SS teacher didnt come to sch today. So we had a relief teacher, who left class early. Too bad it wasnt the end of day.:(

- I went over to michele's table. Shermaine was there and so was natalie and Isabel.Joined them in convo.

-Michele wanted to sleep. So she put her head on the table. Shermaine then took out a pen from michele's pencil case and drew one gigantic line on her.

-Michele awoke in a hurry and tried to grab the pen from Shermaine. didnt succeed.

-Michele told me to grab Shermaine's hands for her. I told Michele i didnt want to betray my friend cos she didnt do anything to me.

-michele got mad. she said ," then you betray me la! hmph! "
-I told michele not to be silly and its just because shermaine didnt do anything to me.
- Michele stood up and She and Shermaine had a scuffle.
-All this while,i tried to break up their cat fight.
-Shermaine then rushed behind me and tried to hide. That's when i got pulled in. I was dragged around, feeling like a dead chicken.
-Michele grabbed me, trying to grab Shermaine. The result? Shermaine got free and Michele sat on me. We were both on the floor at that time. Iam glad no teacher was around.

-i got up and dusted myself free. Shermaine was too busy laughing at the commotion she caused.

-shermaine then started writing on the board. 1st she wrote, " julyn....." She never made it. Cos I erased it-QUICKLY.I was holding the duster then.

-Shermaine then promised she wouldnt write my name. She wrote," Shermaine loves BBT and julyn..." I erased it again.

-I got mad. Grabbed Shermaine by the arm and yanked it such that i was grabbing her wrist and we looked like we were entangled doing a rather complicated form of tango.

-SHERMAINE BIT ME!!!!!!!

-I screamed. Tried to get the duster, which, after all this hullabaloo, was miraculously still in my hand, into Shermaine's face.

-Didnt really succeed. Succeeded, though, in getting my white blouse to become a pale shade of blue from the duster.

-Somewhere far away, the bell rang. Sheramaine and I distangled ourselves and made peace :)
- Ru Hui wrote my name on the board cos she wanted to do sth but then Shermaine and I got into a 'fight'.

-Went for chinese class with my arm still stinging from shermaine's attack and the white blouse showing visible signs of an attack from a vicious bite.

haha

Shermaine super weird today. During recess we were eating some rice with tofu and a chicken wing( at least that was what i was eating) then Shermaine was having a really hard time biting through hers when it suddenly flew out of her mouth and clattered all over her plate. She was like," Hey did you see my chicken? It went up and down the plate..". So i told her, " alright Shermaine your chicken is still alive". Then Michele laughed so hard she choked on her chicken. And rice too for that matter. Cough cough. HAHA. shermaine wants to sleep. sO i better type fast :D

Will this come across successfully? I feel so lost in class i'll bet anything that Iam the lowest. Did I make a mistake appealing into the class I am in now? I would say I didnt. But the many setbacks I have faced really want to make me rethink over my desicions, the way I am spending time, whether or not I am wasting it( like i am now, wrting about nonsensical stuff).

I think above all my setbacks so far this year, what I thought was just about the worst was disappointing myself with my own results. I want to do well in things I know i should score, but its just about trying through squeeze my head through a sock. Not possible.

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ALL my answers are wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Camp debrief ( if anyone is bothered to read)

Cant believe iam back so fast. Camp's over! That same sick and empty feeling. So many memories, so little time. The best part? We didnt have our phones so no pictures! :( Sigh...return back to eath and the sch work...

Things i miss about camp:

-OUR TRAINERS!!!!! THANKS MAS AND SUZY!!!
-HAHA bathing! I know its weird!
-Sleeping together in the same tent!
-High elements and gala night:D
-everything.

I actually wrote down whatever we ate and did! Cant believe it... until i lost my notebook on the 2nd night. But haha i found it back! Unbelievable right?!it was ouside the 3/5 tent. HAHA.

Spent the 1st half of the day on thursday dragon boating. We rowed to the whistle, no drum.. and then we took part in a race, in which we lost:( After that decided to splash ppl in other boats, which we quite a bad strategy, while we were trying to row away from the other boat we splashed, they would retaliate and the ppl at the back of our boat would get soaked through. rice for lunch. Couldnt even bathe after that.RIce for dinner. Had a really hot and sweaty night. They expected us to write a journal entry without light. How i wonder.

2nd day morning, we got up EARLY at 5.00am to wash up before the crowd swelled. But there were already people bathing so we had to wash our hair at the tap. Took so long to dry, like 2 hours ++. Rice for breakfast. We had High Elements on that day. Super freaky. Ask us how its like to climb up and balance on a rope 5m above the ground IDK. But we managed to! Also tried rock climbing. Quite ok la:) Rice for dinner. Another sweaty night. Some of my friends said that they couldnt eat another grain of rice anymore. Too much rice :S

3rd day( today), we did some team circuit relay.YES! Noodles for breakfast! Its some kind of race i guess. HAHA. quite funny.
Then close of camp. Our trainers saw us off at the carpark where we boarded the bus to return back to sch. Quite a sad moment:( Cry here and there. :'(

Sigh. No mood to get back to work! Oh man...

Quiz!!

Quiz. SUPER FREAKY.
1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.-----------------------------------------
IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
All I need is you

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
together

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Keep holding on

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
What I go to school for

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Love lockdown

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Happy birthday

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
don’t wanna play the game

WHAT IS 2+2?
When you look me in the eyes

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Cry me a river

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Dance with me

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
A moment like this.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Good day

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Can I go now, knocking on heaven’s door( OMG OMG OMG>.<)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
One step at a time

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Never gonna give you up

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Kandiman

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
My happy ending

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
This aint‘s a scene its an arm

.WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
A little bit longer

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Now or never

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Welcome to my life

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Fall to pieces

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
stranger

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Far away

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Mercy

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Resign

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Perfect World

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
jump

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
Pushin me away

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
don’t know who u think I am

ARGH. THis questionaire is reading me like a book!!!! :/
TAgged: Shermaine, Michele, estelle, mavis, stephenie, kah hui, Crystal, Shibin, STephanie, Qistina.

happy bday:D

Happy Birthday my friends, Averil and Shibin, who's bday's are today and tmr respectively:D Haha chill la Averil! Srry I couldnt meet u for ur treat today k! nex time! :) As for u...What a pity u won't be here to see it, jungle king ! HAHA ROFL xD.

I cant believe iam feeling so high suddenly. I so totally screwed up a A math test. I know wadever I did study ok?! I know i can do it ok?! I know i can!!!

Its chilling how I experience, all too often, the feeling of dejection which whittles away bits of your pride and leaves you with nothing but a through lack of self confidence, like an empty snail's shell. A bit like Boo Radley. Sigh...

Ok. I shall not wallow in self pity. I must stand up and face the world and its challenges! :D LOLmy writing is more positive than my feelings...

Got some quizzes from Shermaine's blog:) haha.



You Should Play the Violin


You are highly intelligent, and mastering difficult subjects never intimidates you.

And while you may not be musical yet, you have a good ear - and you're sensitive to subtle differences in music.

You are dedicated and studious. You have a great work ethic.


You study well under a teacher, and you don't mind repeating tasks or following instructions.


Expressive and moody, you are very likely to convey a variety of rich emotions through your music.

You are definitely a passionate person... passionate enough to truly love the violin.


Your dominant personality characteristic: your high intelligence


Your secondary personality characteristic: your sensitivity


What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

Super nice poem!

Once in a lifetime
You find a friend
Who touches not only your heart
But also your soul.

Once in a lifetime
You discover someone
Who stands beside you
Not over you.

Once in a lifetime
If you are lucky
You find someone
As i have found you.

Very special people
We can be ourselves with
Talk with, laugh with,
Hope with and Believe with..

THAT's TRUE FRIENDSHIP

Kinesis 09! :)

Argh. Iam not emo! Since when??!! Sigh. Went for kinesis 09 in the NLB downtown today. Super weird. We were like, standing around and ushering the guest of honour in...=.=" then shermaine and i were assigned the panel of sec 1's art works... Both from Clark Quay and Botanical Gardens. Then during the rehersal i said i would do the talking and promptly forgot about it.. until Sher came rushing by and told us that the 'guest of honour' ( played by Clara) had 'arrived' and was looking at the panel we were in charge of! So i just said some stuff and shermaine started with her 'crap crap' nonsence.. we laughed so hard we resembled statues with their mouthes open..HAHA. Play on the word crap. Crap = crab for her. haha sher.

Super ke xi i didnt manage to snap any photos although we were snapped of alot... So mad. I was talking to my sec 2 math teacher Mrs Wong and we were talking about MATH although the photographers apparently thought we were talking about ART.. sO there were like 4 camera's pointed at me and Shermaine.. Elizabeth and Eugenia also.. haha.. the irony.

HAHA I cant wait for camp! Oh and Shermaine dont freak out and cry ok? hahah... Let's see if i can myself :/

what'ts going on?

I think iam going to fall sick. I can feel it. What with all this project work just waiting to be finished, with such a high percentage of marks. What's going on? I hate the way my life is now, I really do! Why cant I be the more cheerful person I used to be? The way i used to laugh at jokes, instead of just shutting up, like someone just turned the volume control knob down.

I've heard it easier to treat someone different when you stop thinking of that person as a human, with feelings and all. Like an inanimate object. Or dead. Maybe. I want to break out of this shell which is growing increasing tighter, about to squeeze the life out, and only then will it ever rejoice.

I wish there was someone who won' laugh at my troubles, at these so ever prominent troubles, problems.. but instead would just listen to me and lend me a shoulder to cry on.

Iam not emo. I know it. Time to stop acting like one. SNAP OUT OF IT Julyn! Don't be such a awful loser and wallow in self pity! Others are worse and they're not snapping! Wake up! Be strong!

WHat's better, crying it out or bottling it up??

inner talk

Sigh. Why have I always got this nagging feeling that i've forgotten to do something? That Iam not doing to the best of my ability?

ARGH. I will do it. I can do it. I must do it. I will not let pressure overtake me. WATCH ME!!!!!!!!!!

The problem with guys: SO true!!!!!

The problem with guys: (read this somewhere)
If u TREAT him nicely,
he says u are IN LOVE with him;
If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;
If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.
If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;
If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;
If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMENT.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!! & sooo hard to please!!!!!

mistaken badly!

OMG OMG iam so dead!!!!!!!! I thought my geog teacher asked us to find rabbits.... and then only at the last minute did i realise she meant RAPIDS!!!!!!! OMG OMG>> >.>

eg.

Haha. Idk about this app but its quite true la..Kinda counts ur bdays and stuff like dat.. like i give u an eg.

Averil: birthday
star sign:Aquarius
days to 15th birthday:23
name number: 23
birth number: 5
5- non conformist

description: 5s are the explorers. Their natural curiousity,risk taking, and enthusiasim often land them in hot water. THey need diversity. and dont like to be stuck in a rut. The whole world is their school and they see a learning possibility in every situation.THe qns never stop. THey are well advised to look b4 they take action and make sure they have all the facts b4 jumping to conclusions.

famous ppl: Too lazy to write xD

Re: A weird questionaire

Whats a fact about the last person you liked?
A person i liked?! As in???


Who was the last perso​n you gave up on?
I dunno...


Have you talke​d to a compl​ete jerk today​?
Nope.


What did you do last night​?
I was.. erm..smsing my friend..


Do you think​ relat​ionsh​ips are even worth​ it?
yes? no? maybe? Is tying yourself down with a relationship too fast good?


If you could​ pack up and move would​ you?
Where's the furthest I could go? Back downstairs and up again?


Do your paren​ts REALL​Y know you?
Iam not sure. Seriously. Maybe somewhat i guess.Sometimes i think my friends know me better. Irony of the situation..


When was the last time you laugh​ed reall​y hard?
Have i really even laughed very hard since the homework started?


What are you excit​ed for?
Erm.. to go visiting and collecting my angpaos? Idk..


Has anyon​e told you latel​y that they would​ alway​s be there​ for you?
Not directly. But then, if it wasnt, how would i know they are implying that anyway? no one has said "I'll be there for you".. sadly:(


What do you want right​ now?
I want to keep friendships forever.. though i know its not always possible:(


Are your paren​ts divor​ced?
NO WAY.


Do you fall for peopl​e easil​y?​
As in?? Not quite. The person has to be nice i guess..


Would you ever get a tattoo?
LOL. Not about to be 'good girl'gone bad so fast...


What'​s your mood right​ now?
Neutral... Stressed...Overwhelmed...a bit sad i guess..


Did you enjoy​ your weeke​nd?
hmm.. I dunno..Its saturday.. the start of the weekend. I hope so...


Last perso​n you told a secre​t to?
Erm.. A friend I guess. I never told anyone that b4 so is that a secret? The same person i've been smsing recently.


Are you stubb​orn?
Sometimes...


Are you gonna​ be home alone​ tonig​ht?
Nope. My dad and mum are both in. Breathing down my neck.


​Are you listening to music​ right​ now?
No. Ipod battery's flat. Come to think of it. Iam online. So i can charge it..


Who else is in the room with you?
No one. Iam alone.


In winte​r,​ would​ you rathe​r wear jacke​ts or hoodi​es?
Hoodies?? Jackets?? I have a jacket i bought from shanghai which is a jacket, and has a hood...


Do you wish you were somew​here else right​ now?
Where else? Not particularly. Iam addicted to the com..:)


How long can you go witho​ut your mobil​e phone​?​
If iam expecting an sms, a very short while. Other than that, not really..


Ever kisse​d someo​ne else'​s girlf​riend​/​boyfr​iend?
Who's other bf/gf do i know? None? And so it NO.
Heard this poem recently though.. its so weird..
When I first saw you, i was afraid to talk to you.
When I first talked to you, I was afraid to kiss you.
When I first kissed you, I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you, Iam afraid to Lose you.

NO DON WORRY IAM NOT IN LOVE..


What'​s the worst​ time to say i love you?
When the person doesn't even have any feelings for you.


Who was the last perso​n in your room besid​es famil​y?​
Erm.. A friend..


What is one place​ you would​ love to visit​ right​ now?
Where have I got to visit? not really anywhere now..


Do you know anyon​e named​ Dan?
Girl or guy?I used to...


Is there​ someo​ne you know you shoul​d hate,​ but you can't​?
YES.


Is there​ anyon​e you trust​ even thoug​h you shoul​dn'​t?
I dont think so. Maybe I dont know cos iam too trusting..


Are you afrai​d of falli​ng in love?
A little. Iam afraid iam too young, and the person may take advantage.. LOL


Have you had the chick​en pox?
Nope! Haha Iam lucky..:)


are you a forgi​ving perso​n?
I would like to think i am. But yea i do forgive quite easily.. 'forgive and forget'..


​Are you talki​ng to someo​ne while​ doing​ this?
No. iam alone with my thoughts. But now my mum is asking me if i'd rather fries or instant noodles =.="


Are you young​er than 21?
Ye. So what? Iam alright so long as u dont call me little girl.. haha..


Do you like winte​r?
Depends. In shanghai I couldnt w8 to feel warmth. Now that iam in singapore, I cant w8 to feel the chill.


​How clean​ is your room?
Fairly clean.. But messy.


Do you have feeli​ngs for anyon​e?
ER ER ER ER.... i dunno! Who doesnt feel anything! This quiz is reading me like a book!!


Is there anyone you need to tell something to?
Maybe. A good friend who will actually listen to me.


Do you want to yell at the top of your lungs​?
I will wake the whole neighbourhood if i do.And after that cry yea..


What do you think​ about​ peopl​e who get hair exten​sions​?
For what?? Not as if u need your long hair now..



Are you named​ after​ a grand​paren​t?
Nope. What's my grandparents name?


Who'​s bed did you sleep​ in last?
What's the inner meaning in here?! MY OWN. DUH.


Do you like the color​ green​?​
Not particularly. I prefer white.


How many hours​ did you sleep​ for last night​?​
erm... let me see... 6?


Last place​ you smoke​d a cigar​ette?
I dont smoke. And I would advice u not too, either!


​Last time you recei​ved flowe​rs?
From who? No i didnt..


Who were you with last Monda​y?
Last monday?Erm..Shermaine and michele I guess.


What are you doing​ tommo​row?​
Busy helping my mum make pineapple tarts athough my cooking sucks.. and pereparing the Chinese New Year reunion..


Are you addic​ted to anyth​ing?
I hope not. But I think Iam addicted to Computer games..


Are you tired​?
Yes. From doing this quiz.. which is taking forever..


What are you about​ to do?
About to have dinner.


When did you sign up for myspa​ce?
I didnt...



What do you do when you get mad?
I.. I dunno.. Either curse and swear or cry..


Where​ were you satur​day night​ at 12?
12 what? midnight? I was doing hmk. And if its in the afternoon, I was drawing, I think
And if ur refering to today, Its not 12 yet. This afternoon I was doing hmk..


Whats​ bothe​ring you right​ now?
Group projects, inability to understand new math concepts, friendship problems.. etc..


What color​ is your tongu​e?​
I think its supposed to be pink..


Is it possi​ble that you could​ be pregn​ant right​ now?
LOL. NO.


When was the last time you had your hair cut?
I havent recently. But.. I really cant rmb..


if you had to go witho​ut one food group​ for the rest of your life,​ which​ would​ it be?
Eh, the one with vegetables in i guess..


When you go to the zoo, what are you most excit​ed about​ seein​g?​
The parrot enclosure..


What makes​ you happy​?
Talking to someone whom I can share my feelings with. Someone who will not tell someone else..


What'​s the great​est thing​ that happe​ned to you today​?
Nothing great...


Do you like the perso​n you are becom​ing?​
Not really. WHo am i becoming? Not some slacker i hope..


Do you miss anyon​e from your past?
Ye. Many people have gone by too quickly.. So now iam trying to hold on..


Name 5 people u want to do this quiz:
erm erm erm ... Shermaine, Shibin( if u have time cos i know u're on a busy schedule!:)), Estelle, erm erm, michele, Mavis! HAHa


Sigh.. This quiz is weird.. haha:) REAd if u want..:)

lit poem 1

First day at school


A millionbillionwillion miles from home
Waiting for the bell to go.( to go where?)
Why are they all so big, other children?
So noisy? SO much at home they
must have been born in uniform.
Lived all their lives in playgrounds
Spent the years inventing games
thay don't let me in. Games
that are rough, that swallow you up.

And the railings.
All around, the railings
Are they to keep out wolves and monsters?
Things that carry off and eat children?
Things you don't take sweets from?
Perhaps they're to stop us getting out
Running away from the lessins. Lessin.
What does a lessin look like? Sounds small and slimy.

They keep them in the glassrooms.
Whole rooms made out of glass. Imagine


I wish I could remember my name.
Mummy said it would come in useful.
Like wellies. When there's puddles.
Lellowwellies. I wish she was here.
I think my name is sewn on somewhere
Perhaps the teacher will read it for me.
Tea-cher. THe one who makes the tea.

~Roger Mcgough

OMG. our 1st attempt at lit in sec 1. HAHA :D

A kid's ( not me! ) poem

A thousand years ago( From a child's point of view)

Sometimes I sit and wonder

About stuff I dont know

Like what the heck the earth was like

A hundred years ago

Did Cavemen ride on dinosaurs?

DId flowers even grow?

Well we could guess but that was back

A hundred years ago

I wish they built a time machine

And they picked me up to go

To check out what the scene was like

A hundred years ago

Did giant spiders rule the earth?

Were deserts filled with snow?

I wonder what the story was

A hundred years ago.

photos from new york..

yay more photos! ;D

Taken when we went to New york New york for lunch..

OMG IRRITATING

Why am i always being sneaked up upon?! Cant anyone do anything without being constatly worried about being WATCHED???!! I cant do anything in peace!!! What?! Even when iam on the computer i cant even do what i want, not even Facebook!

Why do people have to sneak up behind me?! For one thing, I cant stand it when you creep up behind me for whatever iam doing! Not like iam doing anything bad, but i think its crazy! What, You think that's just cos ur standing behind me breathing down my neck i'll comply with what you say?! Nope.. YOu're badly mistaken.. BADLY.

shanghai photos last of it

Yay. stuff finally done uploading:') haha. enjoy:)

Eh. Seems like i have a problem arranging the photos. Anyway these are all from shanghai..

OMG this husky is cutee:)

Taken in Nanjing. (i think) This is from the TV studios where the old shows used to be filmed.

Photos..more to come

Haha i just visited shermaine's blog. So many photos. Better post some of my own :D

ahahaha. Breakfast Loucher. HAHA :)

Marry christmas also. How to 'marry' Christmas?

THe oriental pearl tower in Shanghai. This is the better of the 2 pics in which the tour guide took 4 us and planted the tower on my head.. =.=" -3 degrees..

The piano had some weird keys...not all of them could play..idk whos the guy nex to me..

.....photos!

To my friend who's spending the last day today as a civilian: Happy enlisting and all the best in what ever u do:) run hard..

Haiya anyway... so sian la... homework homework homework. its like throwing a ton of bricks on us and seeing how fast we can get out of it... though i know that if anyone throws bags of bricks on us we'd be dead in no time... why am i saying this? I am not a emo person!

Oh haha this photo was taken in Madam Tussards. Iam not so mad as to kiss a medal that's been handled around so many times... xD

*gasp.

why does this happen!!!

SIGH. NOt a good start but its bad enough. A maths is already confusing enough-and its the second day! haiya haiya..what if i cant catch up with the class? and then i have to rush to try and understand the concept... and while iam trying to understand it the teacher has already gone on!! then if i dont understand this 2nd question i'll have to relook at it and by then the teacher would have gone 3 qns ahead! argh my worst nightmare comes through again... nooooooooo i hope this doesnt happen pls pls!!!!!!!!!!

happy new year(not)

OMG. Its just 1st day and it already started on a bad note.I cant say for sure whether its possible to withstand all the extra load coming in, what with add math as a new subject this year. Apart from the extra problems, eg. friendship problem, group work, etc etc..

As one of my friends rightly said, " cannot succumb to pressure, u must be its master, and not let it be your master." its really true. We all handle pressure in different ways, althought currently i can only think of one, drinking. What happens when a person is suffering from pressure? we become negative and pessimistic. " pessimistic old woman" is also what i've been described as xD you know who you arexD

I also think of somthing else. Only just did i realise what its really like to have an older brother or sister, especially one who can actually give advice and not a lecture. ok, i do admit, it does get pretty boring and lonely at times. Then again, we cant choose our siblings, so yea..:) i see many siblings fighting with each other at this age. Probably wont if they grow older i guess. SIgh. Iam not really sure how to put this across. maybe i should i wait...